A Mistake Mate novel Chapter 65

"I'm sorry baby girl." I heard him whisper before he left the room.

A numb feeling settled over me before I drifted back to sleep.

*Paisley's POV*

I try not to think. Thinking only leads to more heartache. It's been almost a week since the party and things haven't gotten better. I rarely come out of my room, only to eat, and my refusal to talk to my parents only frustrates them further. They keep attempting to get me to tell them what happened but my mouth doesn't ever open.

He comes every day. He tries to get my parents to let him talk to me but I refuse every time they ask. I don't ever see him but I know that he's there, I can feel it in my veins. It's the same thing every day, he asks to see me, my parents tell him I don't want to talk, he sighs sadly before leaving, promising to come back the next day.

And every time it happens my heart aches. There's no changing the fact that I'm in love with Xander but after what he did I know that I will never be able to forgive him. I had thought that things were finally going in the right direction but I was obviously wrong. Xander says that there's an explanation to what he was doing, that it wasn't what it looked like, but how can I believe him?

There is no good explanation for cheating. He cheated on me. That's it, that's all there is to it and I refuse to hear his halfhearted excuse and hurt myself more. My friends have come to see me. Seth, Lela and Perrie came first. They tried to talk to me, ask me what happened, but I don't reply and instead stared straight ahead at my wall.

Dylan and Blake also came to see me. It was a short visit and it consisted of them trying to make me feel better. The two brothers didn't mention the incident or Xander at all, which I was grateful for, and instead focused on getting me to smile. Which I did but only briefly. I hate swimming in my own self pity but I can't help myself. I feel so incomplete, like a piece of me is missing, which I guess is true.

I let out a quiet sigh and ran a hand through my wet hair. I had just gotten out of the shower and hadn't bothered to dry my hair because what's the point? I could hear my parents shuffling around downstairs, talking in quiet voices, and I was thankful that they hadn't bothered me today.

My heart constricted painfully when I glanced at the clock. Twelve thirty. The time Xander comes everyday. A knock sounded through the house, right on time, and I listened carefully as my mother answered the door. I couldn't hear their voices but I knew that they were taking. I waited for a few minutes, expecting the door to close and my mother to sigh sadly, but that didn't happen.

"Your being an idiot and I came to tell you that." Cole finally said. My eyes widened and my head snapped up to him. When he saw my bewildered expression he rolled his eyes and sighed yet again.

"What?" I asked, completely confused. Cole pursed his lips and leaned forward slightly.

"I said your being a complete idiot and I just thought that you should know that." He explained. My mouth was practically hanging open and I couldn't make sense of what he was saying. Cole didn't wait for me to respond but instead continued to talk.

"Your siting here drowning in your own self pity and not even thinking about the other person that this is affecting." He said, his voice sounding angry. I frowned and crossed my arms over my chest, my defenses coming up. Truth be told I think about Xander all the time but nobody needs to know that.