Baby I'm A Sinner novel Chapter 32

He smiled and flicked his index against my clit once more, making me shudder and clench my thighs shut against his arm.

"Stop." I said because he was teasing my sensitive parts on purpose.

"Just teasing." He laughed and got off the bed to go to the bathroom. He returned with toilet paper, which he used to clean me up.

I pulled my underwear and pants on myself, still not quite comprehending the fact that I had just had my first orgasm ever, and that it felt amazing, absolutely mind-blowing.

"You okay?" I asked once he laid back down on my side, so close I could feel his hard-on. "Do you want me to take care of that?"

I was blushing, but I couldn't help but ask.

He looked down at the tent in his sweats and shook his head.

"Wouldn't that count as cheating?"

"Oh and you fingering me doesn't?"

"No, it doesn't because you didn't do anything and it meant nothing."

"Right." I said.

"So I'll go and take care of meself." He spoke and got off the bed once more, to go to the bathroom.

It took him about five minutes, which I used to respond on the 'SQUAD' group with a simple smiling emoji.

When Noah came back, I was already snuggled under the blanket with half opened eyes, ready to go to sleep.

"So when you said 'not today', what did you mean?" I asked when he was in bed too, on his back and staring at the ceiling, probably trying to fall asleep.

"You know what I meant."

"You meant that it would happen again?"

He shrugged, turning his head to look at me.

"If you want it, all you have to do is say the word, and I'm yours."

***

"You in a skirt?" Jake exclaimed on that Friday morning, a week later, as soon as I entered psychology.

I blushed when I saw a few heads turn in my direction, and Noah shamelessly looking me up and down.

"Shut up." I mumbled and sat down next to him, placing my notebooks on the desk. "Luke likes them."

"You don't need to dress up for a guy. Dress up for yourself." Emma said and I turned my head to look at her.

"It's not necessary to dress up for a guy, but if I want to I can."

She smiled and mocked applause, just as the teacher came in.

"Settle down everyone. I know it's first period." She sighed and sat down at her desk, pulling out the attendance sheet and starting to call out names.

When she got to Luke's name, no one answered and that's when I noticed that he wasn't there.

I quickly texted him under the desk to make sure he was okay.

Dani: are you okay? Where are you? :)

Luke (heart emoji): im home. Sick :((((

Dani: aww get better x

Luke (heart emoji): of course (heart emoji) I think im coming to the game tho

Dani: (thumbs up emoji)

Once the teacher was done calling attendance she sat up from the desk and turned around to write on the blackboard.

When she was done writing, she turned back to look at us with a smile.

"Today's topic is love. Or identifying love."

I looked behind her to see that she wrote 'THEORIES OF LOVE'.

"How do we usually tell when someone is in love?"

A few hands shot up in the air, and Ms. Lowe pointed at Carly so she could answer.

"We can tell by their actions, words and reactions."

"Very good Carly. Can anyone give me examples of actions that can determine whether a person is in love? How can you tell based only on their gestures and the way they behave?"

"Mr. Hudson. So glad to see you cooperate. Please elaborate your statement."

"Well. Everything comes to an end at some point. Relationships either end in breaks ups or marriage. And marriage always ends up in divorce."

"Only forty percent of couples get divorced."

"Which is almost half. Why waste several years of your life with someone and then break it off, only to see that life already passed you by."

"That's a good point, but I beg to differ. People who don't find someone to love usually end up depressed and alone. Most of these cases lead to suicide or dementia."

Noah snorted.

"When you say 'to love', do you mean find someone who loves you or find someone to love?" I asked.

"Someone to love you." Ms. Lowe said.

"Seem, but that's not fair." Zack observed. "You can't force someone to love you, so it's not your fault if no one does."

"Everyone has at least someone who loves them."

"Parents don't count." Noah said.

"Of course not. It's just that some people never confess their love so that why we feel like no one loves us. Yes Emma?"

"Is it true that everyone has that one person they will always like no matter the circumstances?"

"Yes, it's a psychological proven fact."

"So philophobic people are never going to love?" I asked.

"No, they are going to love but they're never going to admit to it to someone, or themselves."

"But are they going to be in a relationship though?" Harry asked.

"Yes they can. It's just like being homosexual and having a heterosexual relationship. People can lie to protect themselves. We have time for one more question."

"Is there a difference between how a girl loves and how a boy loves?" Lucas asked.

"Yes. If a boy is in love then it's much more serious and meaningful, and if a girl is in love, she has more chances of getting with the person she loves."

I wasn't sure if whatever she said was sexist or not, but the bell rang so the psychology period became the last thing on my mind.