Bullying The Emo novel Chapter 5

"Don't get up". he growled and walked back and forth as he talked.

"I saw your mom yesterday, she was in my neighborhood. I doubt you saw her, poor thing, she was here but didn't visit her only son she left alone in their house, you know I hate you right?why are you here I mean, you're gay, emo, and your parents don't even wants to be near you, why are you here". he came closer to me and pulled me up.

"Why are you still alive?". he hissed 

Tears started running down my cheeks as I bit my bottom lip, knowing its true, I tried not to sob. I push out of his hold to run out the bathroom but he held my wrist tight and push me against the wall, I close my eyes and whimpered as pain shot through me, from my wrist and back.  

"You're such a fag, why are you cr-". he stop and I felt his hand loosen from my wrist.

I opened my eyes and he was staring at his hand, it was blood and I peek down at my arm and saw that my cuts had opened.

"W-what is this?". he ask in a angry but concern voice.

"I-i-i".

"Answer me!". he yelled.

I push him, hard for him to fall and I ran out the bathroom and down the stairs to my locker. I got my skateboard and went outside, m. I skate home and ran up to my room and wash my hand off I was still crying and I sat down on my bed and brought my knees to my chest and cried. Levii was right, if my mom and dad loved me they would have stayed with me or bring me with them. No body cares about me, my family never called and I only had pro and sher. Levii hates me his friends hates me the rest just pretend to like me put hates me. He's right why am I still alive?. I have nothing to live for.

I got up and took up my car keys, I turn all the lights off in the house and headed outside and opened my garage door. I went into one of my cars and drove out. I drove to the lake near by the a church and got out my car, I put my hands in my pocket and walked by the side of the lake until I saw the bridge, I ran my fingers along the railing until I was in the center of the bridge. I looked down and looked at the water, I couldn't see the bottom knowing it was deep and I can't swim. A tear ran down my face as everything ran through my mind. I had to do this. I stepped over the railing, it wasn't hard since it was like waist height. I turn my back toward the water, stretch my arms out and close my eyes.

I heard the familiar voice called my name but I ignored it.

"Your wish is finally coming through Levii". I whispered before dropping myself into the water.

I smell chocolate, ohh I need choco-

Wait

I'm suppose to be dead. Why am I smelling chocolate.

"Why?!". I yelled this time.

"Why did you do that?". he came up to me and I moved back.

"Isn't that what you wanted... for me to die?". I ask looking into his eyes.

"I didn't want you dead Ally why would you think that?".

"Oh I don't know maybe because you said it!!you said no one wants me here and why am I still alive! and you hate me!".

He looked guilty as he remembered our conversation from today.

"I'm sorry. I don't hate you Alex".

"Then why do you bully me, you've made my life a living hell that's all you do. You're the one that makes me self harm, you're the one that gave me so many brusise, you're the one that made me wish I wasn't born. You're the one that made me tried to kill myself and yet you stop me".