His Drama Queen novel Chapter 39

"A break does not necessarily mean seeing other people, but if you want to do that, than sure go ahead." I turned around, grabbed my clutch and stuffed my keys and phone in it. I was already fifteen minutes late to my own fashion show, but would it really be a 'Nicole Vargas' fashion show if I didn't arrive fashionably late?

"Why are you so casual about this?" Ethan asked as he frustratingly went with his hand through his hair. His once neatly combed hair looked now disheveled. He loosened his tie as he took a deep breath. "You wanted this all along, didn't you?"

I sighed deeply as I looked up at his distressed but still handsome face. His eyes held all kinds of emotions, it was hard to make out what he was feeling right now. Hurt, anger, betrayal? "I don't want this. I need this. And so do you."

"No, you cannot tell me what I need. And for your information, it's you that I need."

I rolled my eyes at him. That was so cliche. "You will figure that out during our break. It will be good for the both of us, Gray."

"Explain how, Vargas?" he taunted as he clenched his fist. "Explain why we need a break? As far as I know I have been nothing but forgiving, caring, and loving. It's you who has been acting so impossible. I try my best to live life your way, but I don't get the same energy back from you.'

I sighed deeply and walked towards him to fix his tie. I didn't want to get angry. Partly he was right anyway. My fingers trembled as I did.

"We rushed things. We both know that. So let's just...stay single for a while. Let's figure out what we really want. Let's see what fate has in store for us. I still love you. I really do, Ethan. I'm not willing to change for you, or at least not for the moment. You were just someone who was suppose to watch over me. Not fall in love. But look where we are now. You may not think that we need a break, but I know that we do."

The pain flickering in his eyes didn't go unnoticed and something in my heart snapped. But I took a deep breath and tried to stay unaffected. I have thought about this for a long time and I really wanted to go through with it. We both need it for godsake!

"I do not agree with this at all." He mumbled as he looked into my eyes. "But as I already said before, everything for you princess. So once again, I'll grant you your wish."

A tear managed to fall down my cheek, but Ethan was quick enough to wipe it away. I have no idea why I just cried. I have prepared myself for this. Ethan kissed my forehead and let me go. "I hope you know what you're doing. A break is a break, princess. We might not end up together anymore."

I gulped as my chest tightened. So much for staying strong. The idea of us not being together in the future is bothering me. I silently told myself that it will never happen. Somehow I will make sure we will end up together. "Don't say that." I whispered softly as I stroked his cheek softly

Ethan shrugged his shoulders and brushed my hand away. "This is your way of granting me access to love someone else, fuck someone else, marry someone else. Is this what you want?"

"If that happen--" I took a deep breath, deep down hoping it will never happen. The break is to get both our lives back on rails. It is not to develop feelings for someone else. "We were never meant for each other."

Ethan chuckled and shook his head. He stayed silent for a while, studying my facial expression. "Congratulations on your first Fashion show. Your dad must be proud of you, achieving such a milestone in less than a year."

"It was horrendous. I told your dad to book us in business class, but he accidentally booked us in economy class." She huffed as she crossed her arms around her chest. She narrowed her eyes at my dad who just shrugged his shoulders in response.

"You could have upgraded to business class and what happened to the private jet?" I asked, furrowing my eyebrows.

"Business class was full." My dad said. "Our airport is under construction. We cannot use it until next month."

"That sucks, but I'm glad you made it tonight." I was so happy that they could make it to my very first fashion show. Today my mom had an art exhibition and dad needed to go to Thailand for a meeting, but they all canceled it for me. I couldn't be more grateful.

"Of course." My dad laughed. "I would cancel anything for you only to see your successes."

My mom looked around the room, her eyes analyzing each and everything. "It's amazing what you have achieved in less than a year. I'm so proud of you. Where's Ethan bytheway?"

The smile on my face disappeared and the pain in my heart welled up again. "He uhm... he can't make it tonight." I lied to her. There was no other thing I could say right now without me breaking down. It took a solid hour to redo my makeup after Ethan left. Mom looked at me suspiciously. "That's weird." She mumbled as she looked at my dad. "Don't you think, Santiago?"