Kidnapped by the Mafia novel Chapter 17

They were my own fears and doubts that tried to push me away from him. They stomped down on my reasoning and logic and tried to block out anyone who tried to help. Even the man who had been trying to bring food, left it outside and came to check on me often. That was the only time I even let out a sound which wasn't a sob or a wail.

I had taken a shower yesterday, but Instead of standing I tried to scrub my body raw of any traces that man could've left. Trying desperately to erase his touch and his voice from my head but when all of that failed. I sat under the shower, for hours, my head lowered to the ground as I breathed numbly.

Feeling absolutely done with everything. The smallest of actions made breathing a hard task. Every time the doorknob would jiggle while I was awake. I would start hyperventilating, imagining him returning to finish what he had started.

I didn't want to be alone, no matter how far I locked myself away and for how long I did, I didn't want to be left alone. It was so much scarier alone, so much worse than before. My senses were heightened when I was alone especially in the dark.

I peeked through my arms and found Severus still seated on the ground, his eyes locked with mine and he smiled. The small act encouraged me, and I hiccuped before unwinding from myself and slowly crawling over to him.

He settled me against him in his lap. Arms wrapped around me and his forehead pressed against mine.

"S-Sev~"

My sentence got cut off as I hiccuped again. He shushed me calmly, his hands resting on my cheeks as he whispered gently.

"I know love, I'm sorry."

carefully pulling me impossibly more closer, he settled me under his chin. We sat in silence for a while, which made me cry even more as he tried to calm me down.

"But Sev-y, he tried to touch me."

I hiccuped again before burying my head deeper into his neck in shame. He stiffened in response, his hands stopping in the air. They formed fists before coming to rest at my back.

"Edward informed me of that."

"Don't leave me alone a-gain."

He shook his head in response and kissed my head.

"I won't."

A deep promise lay within his voice as he spoke up. Dark enough to send a buff man running for the hills and assuring enough to lull me to sleep.

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Severus had made sure that I ate before he left to get some papers from his office after assuring me that he would be quick to return. Reluctantly, I let him go and sat behind the closed but unlocked door, in alert. Even though him being here helped me, I still couldn't remove the incident from my mind.

The emotions, the weakness, the mental scar. Everything was there and another wound was inflicted onto my mind whenever I reminded myself of that incident. Especially when I was alone.

I walked into the washroom, the fear far too great for me to continue sitting on the bed. I closed the door behind myself and walked over the the empty cubicle.

"Where did he touch you?"

Tears brimmed at the corner of my eyes as he smiled calmly.

It took a moment but slowly, his sincere look had me peeking out from my shell and pointing towards my wrists.

I trailed a finger against the joint and he captured both my hands to litter kisses on them. I pointed towards my ear, then my cheek and jaw. His hands slowly wandered over the flesh I pointed at. Easing my senses as he pressed gentle kisses on them.

Enticing a moan from me when he sucked on the area below my ear. I pointed a finger towards my neck- the place burned up with shame- but the feeling was short lived as he kissed his way down to my collarbone, nibbling, sucking, biting, soothing.

Drawing one sound after the other from my lips before littering kisses on my chin and slowly drawing himself closer to my lips.

I reached up and cupped his cheek, he tilted his head to the side curiously as I slowly began pulling him down. He obliged, smiling against my lips as he realized my intentions.

A soft passionate kiss followed. One that held a thousand feelings and relayed them perfectly.

The night was a steamy and passionate one, filled with several whispered words and secret feelings. Soft caresses and loving kisses, Severus truly managed to replace any and every memory of his fathers actions from my mind.

He replaced them with more valuable ones, ones that I knew I would forever cherish. And I would always remember the night I lost my virtue as the best night I had ever had since I joined this scornful and demeaning world.