Long Awaited Mate Is A Baby novel Chapter 37

By the time I've finished speaking I'm in tears. I'm full on crying, which isn't like me, and the only other time I can really remember doing it was when Allie was in the hospital the first time an she wouldn't wake up.

The tears flow freely from my eyes and I can't stop them, even if I'm trying to.

But when I feel Allie climb into my lap and wrap her arms around me, the urge to cry suddenly goes away, and I feel so contented just to hold her in my arms. The only place I know she can stay safe.

"Don't cry," Allie whispers, using her soft hands to wipe my face. "You don't need to. I'm fine now. And even if I can't remember what You want me to, I'm not leaving. I never want to leave you, ever. Don't worry about things like that,"

I pull my mate closer to me, breathing in her scent that calms me and my wolf down. She smiles at me, her blue eyes looking the same as I remember them being the very first time she smiled at me.

I smile back at her, and watch in confusion, that soon turns to understanding, as Allie's head moves closer to mine, inching its way through the air. And I realize maybe a second too late, what she wants, and before I'm even able to react, Allie's lips are on mine.

Before I even realize what I'm doing, I'm kissing her back, my wolf's voice flooding through my ears as he babbles on about his mate.

I try to ignore him, but it's impossible, and the more he talks, the more my sense of reality comes back to me.

In a spilt second, I tear my lips away from Allie's, leaping across my room and pressing myself into a corner, as far away from her scent as I can get. I'm practically holding my breath.

Allie stares at me, her eyes going wide once she realizes what she's done. I watch as red floods her normally pale cheeks, and she ducks her head to try and hide it.

I want to go and comfort her, tell her that she shouldn't be upset, but I just don't trust myself right now. Or more specifically, I don't trust my wolf to let me stay in control.

'Go back to mate,' he whimpers loudly in my head. 'I want mate,'

I ignore him as best as I can.

I'm about to say something when Allie cuts me off with a sniffle. She sounds like she's about to cry, and just the though of her being upset makes my entire body tense.

She nods, her brow still slightly rose.

"Okay. And your wolf, she likes me, doesn't she?" I don't know how much Allie can actually hear her wolf yet since she hasn't shifted, but I could hear mine's emotions before I phased, and Allie should be able to as well.

"Yes," Allie sighs, exasperated. "Its all I hear in my head. She doesn't use actual words, but whenever I'm around you she goes all crazy,"

I can't help but let a small smile break across my face. My wolf flips out in happiness in my head. He's ecstatic that Allie's wolf feels like he does.

"She likes me because we're mates," I explain. "And although your wolf and even you might be ready to expand our relationship, I'm not. I will be at some point, but I don't think I can right now,"

With each word I utter to my mate, I feel a piece of my heart break off. In all honesty, I want to kiss Allie, and hold her, and tell her how much I'll always love her. I want to be able to be by her side all the time, and make sure she has everything she could ever want or need.

But I can't now. I just can't.