Philophobic novel Chapter 4

I don't want anyone to love me. I don't want to break anyone's heart and or mine. This is why I refused in the first place to fuck with him. I knew he'd get some hope, which I specifically said he shouldn't no matter what. I never want to fuck with him ever again. He's not the first to tell me he has some feelings towards me but he is worse.

After a while of freezing my thoughts, I got out of the water. The ice melted anyway. Mom was standing at the door waiting for me to open it. "What did you do with all that ice?" She glared at me.

"It melted."

"You're so useless. How about instead of buying those makeup stuff and clothes you buy some food. I've fed you your entire life and you don't want to return the favour?!"

"Goodnight mom." I passed her and went to my room.

"I'm still talking you skank! A boy shouldn't use so much money on makeup! Get back here and feed me!" I shut my door. I wore my favourite pyjamas, turned the nightlight on and went into bed.

(Time-lapse)

Not after long, I was exchanging books with my locker. Why am I even here?! There's nothing to learn anymore! I already know it all! He popped up again, this time startling me. "Sweet mother of makeup!" I jumped after seeing him. "Why did you do that!?" He made a sad and sorry face. "Seriously, who are you? You keep on popping up out of nowhere. It's like you're following me and I don't even know who you are."

"Zack." He spoke softly while facing down, but I couldn't make out what he said.

"What?"

"Zack Lee." He blushed a little still facing down.

"Zack Lee?" He nodded. "Your name?" He nodded. "You're Asian?" He shook his head. "Half Asian?" He nodded with a smile. "Well okay then. I'm Zee." He smiled even more. "I guess I'll see you in class." His smiled disappeared. I went to class. That was weird. It's like last night. He doesn't speak, he just nods.

Zack Lee. That's a cool name.

Class went by very fast. I wasn't even paying attention since I already know everything. I don't even know how I'm this smart. It's a blessing I guess. "Before you leave, is there anyone who would like a tutor? There are tutoring classes everyday after school willing to help with any subject, especially math. One of the tutors : Zee, one of our classmate." Everyone murmured. I didn't even want to do this tutoring thing. I got convinced by Mr Cock, hehe, when he said I can get paid. I need the money so I agreed to do it. But I only get paid if the students pass a specific test. The higher the marks, the higher the pay. R10 every 10 marks. But most of the people I've tutored are idiots so they passed with low marks like 40, 35. Only one got a 59. I still wasn't proud. "Anyone at all?" Someone raised their hand. It was Zack. Zack Lee.

Oh great! I gotta tutor a weirdo now?!

Raven glared at her. "He's not beautiful. He's disgusting. Okay?"

Claire frowned. "Fine." She's pansexual and no one but me knows. Plus she likes me. Hehe!

"I'm the beauty here." The girls shook their heads while frowning at her. She doesn't even know that she has fake friends. "Anyways, what're you doing with all this makeup? Must've stolen it, huh?"

"I didn't steal anything. I bought it." I put everything inside my makeup bag.

She snatched it and took out my black bitch lipstick. "Nope. This stuff is too expensive for you. You definitely stole it."

"I said I didn't steal anything. Give it back." I tried taking it, they blocked me.

"No sweety. We gotta clear this bag for you. Okay?" She smirked evilly. They took out everything and starting taking some. "Come on girls. Chose whatever you want. But leave the best ones. Those are mine." They rolled their eyes then started taking my stuff. Luckily, they didn't take everything. They left some of the best stuff. And my favourite lip gloss. They didn't take it.