Stripper's Insemination novel Chapter 80

I tied to blank out the memory but as i felt Luca's weight on top of me about to kiss me again, all i could vision was the hurt, pain and the humiliation. I suddenly push wildly at Lucas chest and struggle to get away letting out a loud sob of protest.

My sudden behavior startled Lucas unexpected, he immediately backed off frowning in bewilderment.

ELLE P. O. V

I clutched my blouse trying to wrap it around me, then i got up and sat on the edge of the bed looking petrified. I tried to get rid of the memories that had taken over to haunt my mind, Lucas sat there looking at me as if i had gone crazy.

"What going on Elle?" he asked.

"I....don't... think...i...can go through with his, i said crying.

"What do you mean Elle?" Today is our wedding night, you can't do this to me or is there something you are hiding from me he said.

I can't blame him if he is angry at me for leading him on, then falling apart at the crucial moment. He is probably regretting he had married me. "I'm..sorry..i'm so so sorry Lucas, i kept repeating it over and over again, i don't know what to do now, whether to tell him the truth or not.

LUCAS P. O. V

"Elle", i spoke her name alarmed by her behavior and the way she was covered over, obviously frightened by something. I slowly walk over to her, "Are you okay?" "What the matter huh?".

Why are you behaving like this all of a sudden, i know this is your first time but i promise i will not hurt you. Is that the reason why you are behaving like this huh.

"No! Lucas.

"Then what Elle, i touch her face trying to kiss her but she quickly stood up shouting loud "no! no! Lucas.

"Okay fine!, i will not touch you or try to kiss you i said.

"I'm sorry Lucas but i can't do it.

I was wondering why a young feisty woman i love and care so much had suddenly become a quivering wreck and seems absolutely petrified. I think something is wrong somewhere and i'm going to find out some how, i went over to her and hold her two hands firmly and not so hard that it will panicked her.

"Please Lucas don't be angry with me", she whimpered again. I wonder if someone hurt her in the past. She then bowed her head down covering her face crying.

"Look at me Elle?" i commanded her in a firm tone, she move her hands off her face. I'm not angry with you okay but I'm angry with what so ever thing that is worrying you now. I said with soothing tone, before urging.

"Okay let sat down first, now tell me what is the matter?

I'm sorry, i thought i had got over what happen with my....

"Look"! why don't you go into the bathroom and tidy yourself up a bit and pull yourself together. She turned around about to go, "um....Lucas i'm sorry how things turned up. I feel quilt about what happen she said.

"Oh don't be my love, you go ahead. I will be waiting for you i said. She slowly walk to the bathroom to sort herself out. While she was sorting herself in the bathroom, i went and put on a T-shirt and came and sat on the bed.

I switched on the television and start thinking about the whole thing that happen, i was wondering she never show any outward dislike to any of the physical advances i made towards her.

I had felt sure that she had enjoyed it when i kissed her, her willing response had told me that much. Even tonight her body language had given me no other indication, i need to sort things promptly and efficiently. I will try my best to find out what is eating her up.

5 minute later she came out dressed in her nightdress with her matching gown wrapped around her, she look a lot calmer now. "How are you feeling now?" i asked her.

"A bit better", she replied then frowned. Although i still feel bad freaking out like that on you she said".

But it's understandable under the circumstances, i said. The delicacy of the situation was lost on me making me feel usually awkward as what to do or say next.

ELLE P.O.V

I slowly walk to the bed and lied down turning my back to him, i then cover my body with the duvet. After a moment of silent, i asked him. "I guess this was not the way you expected the night to be having to nursemaid me, "i feel like a fool to behave like this on my wedding night".