Arranged Navy Alpha novel Chapter 15

"What are you doing here, asshole?" She asks, crossing her arms.

"I need to see her. Please, please let me see her." I ask, my voice cracking.

"Hang on." She says closing the door

There was a little shuffling and mumbles behind the door before it was opened again. Before me stood my mate. besides the tears she still looked as beautiful as ever. I whimpered loudly at the evil look she was giving me and my head dropped once again.

"What do you want?" She asks lowly.

"I- Laken I've been called back. I h-have to go back." I stumble over my words.

"Okay and is this you just rubbing it in my face that I can't have you?" She growls.

That set me off and I let the tears slide down my face.

"I didn't mean to push you Laken. I'm so in love with you, I'm just to much of a pathetic asshole to see that I was pushing you. I'm so sorry. I'm not asking you to forgive me, I just thought you might want to know that I wasn't leaving because you didn't want me because I'm not a coward. I really do love you, please just know that. I hope that you can find someone you love, because I know I'm not good enough."

As I'm saying all of this I'm scratching at my wrist wishing for the cuts to open back up.

I pause hoping for an answer but she never does. I whimper and start towards the stairs quickly. I started beating myself up on the inside.

'Your so stupid, you idiot! Of course she wouldn't want to talk to you after you did something like that to her.'

"Austin."

I tried to ignore her as the tears kept falling, and I noticed my wound had opened back up.

"How long." She calls out.

I growl,"I don't need you pity Laken. This is my choice. it's how I get over things."

She gasps and let's out a sob. I fall onto a step and punch the wall beside me.

How did this happen? It was supposed to be perfect when I found my mate. It's not something you can mess up.

I couldn't help the tears that ran down my face. My wolf was aching at the closed bond between us.

His hoarse cries entered my head once more, 'please don't do this Austin. I'm begging you. Don't leave our mate. She needs us, and we most definitely need her. Please, please don't do this.'

I chocked as he showed me her thoughts and her struggle to reach me. It made my heart ache worse.

'Please stop your making it hurt worse.'

I reply back.

He whimpers one last time before receding from my mind.

"Son, don't do this, to you and your mate. They will understand, don't go back. Your mate needs you here. You need to be here for her. Support her and love her. Start a family. Just don't leave her." Mitchell said.

I nodded,"You have no idea how much I want that, but I can't give her that. I'm not good enough for her, no where near it in fact."

He scoffed,"Austin you were made for her! What are you talking about you aren't good for her?", He paused for a moment before continuing,"This is about your dad isn't it? Listen son, and listen good, your dad loves you. I know that after your mom died he became angry and mean, but he did love you. After he had yelled at you all those times he would come to me after, crying! Do you know how bad it was for me to see my best friend in so much pain? It's hard. I think we all know somewhat what you are going through and I know it's hard. Just remember things always work out for the best."