From Friend To Mate novel Chapter 6

Did they know too?

My breathing shortened and I couldn't face her any longer. I pushed past her and ran to my room without looking back.

"Felix? What happened?" I heard her voice say before I disappeared in my room and locked the door.

I leaned on it before slowly sinking down onto the ground. The words repeating itself in my mind over and over and over again.

Murderer.

Murderer.

No. No. No.

Im not a murderer.

I curled myself onto the floor. My body still shaking from the previous events. Eventually after the shock settled I got up and went over to my bed finally falling asleep.

Brnnnng. Brnnng.

I slowly pried my eyes open noticing that someone was calling I turned over on my bed in search for my phone. I probably abandoned it on the ground the day before. When I saw who was calling my breath hitched.

Jason.

I wanted to answer so bad. To tell him to come back and that I'm sorry and that I missed him.

To ask him where he was.

Yesterday.

But the events which played out was still having huge effect on me and I couldn't bring myself to answer. So I just let it ring. Going through my phone I noticed how Jason had been calling me for hours and hours.

What did he have to say?

The phone finally silenced.

Brnngg. Brnnnng.

Oh my gosh. I picked up the phone in fury. And stayed silent. I just wanted to see what he had to say. I wanted to see whether he knew about what happened yesterday.

If he was...involved.

I knew there was no way that i could bring myself to ask him. So the phone line was left silent.

"Felix?"

I finally let out the breath i didn't know i was holding.

I picked it up and observed it before slowly holding it tighter between my fingers as the blade sunk into my point finger and thumb leaving drops of blood falling onto the white sink.

It pierced my finger ever so slightly. It was almost comforting.

The blood contrasted greatly with the entire bathroom.

What am i doing i said before dropping the razor blade on the sink and heading into the shower to get ready for the date.

The blood was still there decorating my room in a brand new colour. Little did I know this would symbolize the beginning a new chapter in my life, whether it'll be good or bad was up to me to decide.

Previously

Little did I know this would symbolise my life beginning a new chapter, whether it'll be good or bad was up to me to decide.

Third person POV

After Felix had his shower he immediately exited the toilet. The events that transpired just a few minutes ago seem to already have left his mind as he completely disregarded the drops of blood which were littered over his bathroom sink.

It seemed as if he was trying to forget it was there. To rid himself of the self destructing thoughts that had seem to recently be creeping up on him.

He eventually got dressed in simple skinny dark blue jeans with rips in them along with a blue denim shirt. Today he decided to forget about everything that previously happened. Today was a new day and Felix was planning on leaving his past life and saying hello to a new him.

Before he left the room he stood at the mirror taking in his form. It was quite evident that he was shorter than the average man. he sulked staring at himself. His brown chocolate eyes stared back at him. "Why am I so damn short?" he said, voicing his insecurities.