From Friend To Mate novel Chapter 9

The last thing Jason remebered was going to a bar and drinking until he couldn't anymore. He was scared that Felix was really moving on from him.

He understood that he was angry at that point but that at no means meant that he wanted felix to distance himself from him forever.

He would eventually get over it and they'd be friends again. That was the plan. He must've come here on instinct.

Looking at felix now though, Jason didn't know if they could get back what they once had and it truly broke his heart knowing that.

He instantly stepped back away from Felix. He noticed the hole he made on the wall. If that punch had hit felix it really would've been the end for him. Upon seeing Felix's form Jason's legs gave out as he dropped on the floor in front of him.

"Fe.."

"Just go." Felix said cutting him off.

Felix didn't want to hear anything that Jason had to say for himself. He wouldn't be able to handle it. For now he just needed space from him. But jason didn't budge from his position. He just stared at Felix with shock and disappointment in himself.

"Please." Felix said. He couldn't take looking at him anymore. He was really at his wits ends.

Jason got the message and stood up. He was on his way but before he went he had one last look at felix.

No. For now maybe he'd give felix some space. But there was no way he could live without him. Even if it took years for felix to like him again. Jason didn't care. At that moment he realised that he was nothing without him.

Felix's eyes drifted to the ground as tears decorated his soft face. Eventually he heard the slam of the door.

This was the second time and it hurt even harder. The second the door closed felix wailed. The pain he felt was unbearable. It hurt so much. So he did the only thing that he knew could help him get used to the pain.

Previously

It hurt so much. So he did the only thing that he knew could help him get used to the pain.

That was the worse night that Felix ever experienced. He ended up falling asleep on the cold wooden floor. With tears staining his cheeks. His wrist hurt badly.

Jason didn't contact Felix after what went down. The guilt began to eat him inside out. He craved Felix's presence and it took everything in him to not rush to his house again.

Recently he's been noticing how he'd been unable to control his actions as well as his emotions. He felt like he was always all over the palce and it was beginning to negatively affect one of his most pized friendships.

He was completely perplexed and didn't know what to do. The only solution he thought of was asking his dad but Jason didn't like talking to his dad to begin with.

He blamed him for the disappearance of his mother and he understood that his dad did try to mend their relationship but that didn't last long as talk of the company that he had to take over would always come up.

And he hated it. More than anything. It was like a weight on his chest. Thinking and witnessing the things he'd have to do. The pain he'd have to inflict.

He'd hate to go through that. Again.

On Monday morning felix was feeling way better than the day before. After what he did to himself, while looking at the mirror he promised that he'd never do anything like that again.

The school day began as normal as it could be without Jason. This day they did have lessons together and everytime felix thought of it he began to shake. He didn't know how he should act around Jason knowing what he did to him just two days ago. He needed more time away from him.