Her Innocence novel Chapter 67

"How was it?" Nathan asked as he helped me up from my chair. I still haven't been able to walk properly after my legs were fractured bad. But as Nathan said 'It's a lot better' then yes, I can drag myself and it is better.

"Shit. She makes me say the same thing again and again." I tell him as he chuckled and picked me up Bridal style, I gasped. "People are looking Nathan!!"

He didn't seem to care as he walked through the parking lot and placed me in the car. I rolled my eyes as he gave me a peck and went to the driver's side to start the car. The drive was silent as Nathan seemed like he was thinking about something, I didn't feel like ruining his thoughts so I kept listening to the soft humming of the radio while looking out the window watching the same road, we take every day.

"My love?" I hummed and turned to face him as he smiled and kept his eyes on the road. "Get ready tonight, the girls are in the house to help." I narrowed my eyes at him as he parked the car and quickly got out before I can even ask him 'why?'. He reached my side and gave me peck once again before picking me up to get in the house.

"Why all of a sudden?" I asked him. We have dates but mostly in the house. He got me flowers and gifts, even cooked for me, made me wear cute dresses, online shopping. It wasn't that he wouldn't let me out but I didn't want to go out. I felt people's gazes judging me for killing my own child and I couldn't take it.

"I just want you to go outside, a small step. It would be better for your health. Janet, I know you think this was your fault but trust me when I say this. You are the victim and I don't blame you nor does any of our friends, the people around you won't judge you for something you had no control over. " I bit my lip as I thought it over, I know I keep blaming myself and it's getting hard to love myself but I want to try and not give up just like Nathan didn't give up on me.

"I want to work this out! I do but it's hard too, I see them staring at me. It's hard to not imagine what my baby would look like, in my arms, in your arms. It's really sad that I won't be able to see my child even for once." I cried as Nathan hugged my body tighter in his arms. I broke down once again when I promised to not think about it. I couldn't hold my emotions once again and I let my mind drift off to my baby.

"My love, please think about me, I know it's hard but I don't want you to get depressed about this. It would be a lot better to move past this, together." I nodded as he kissed my forehead making me smile. He helped me into the house and I was greeted by Bella and Valeria. They helped me dressing up and Lydia cooked delicious food for us. I smiled at the atmosphere around me, I couldn't have asked for more.

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"We will drop by someday else, have fun!" Bella yelled as she carefully walked out of the door with her huge belly. She was delighted with her child and her lover; she still hasn't decided to get married and was happy on how things were going. I shouldn't but I have the desire to have a child and I had no idea how I will tell Nathan about it.

"Lydia can you take me to the living room to the pole?" She nodded her and helped me into the wheel chair. She strolled me into the room and towards the horizontal pole. Nathan installed it for me, so that I could practice walking instead of going to the physiotherapist. I held the cold pole and tried to stand up, Lydia offered to help but I held my hand out.

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