The Best Man novel Chapter 42

Olivia's POV

Confessions Pt II

"You're kidding right?", I chucked lightly, clearly amused at what he just said, thinking it was one of his funny jokes

"I don't usually joke about things like this, I'm actually deadly serious", he stated without even flinching

"I'm falling in love with you", he repeated and I stared at him for like a whole minute, hoping that he could say something else or burst out into laughter, telling me that he was kidding or something, but he didn't

......that's just when my world started crumbling around me, and I'm sure you know what happens after that, right?

Panic

I felt my heart stop beating, and I froze in my spot, my stomach twisting and there was suddenly this tightening feeling around my chest causing me to start breathing differently

"Are you okay?", he asked when I reached for the door handle to get out so that I can get some fresh air, and he followed me out of the car, standing closely behind me

"W....why would y...you even say that?", I turned to look at him, fighting the tears that were gathering in my eyes, and he sighed heavily, this wasn't the reaction he was expecting to get and it showed

"I'm at the point where I can't bring myself to lie about how I really feel about you anymore", he answered, and I bit hard on my T-shirt to stop myself from crying. "Ever since that night, I can't seem to get you out of my mind, you're all that I think about"

"Nathan-",

"I've been spending these past few weeks getting to know you and even so, it's still not enough because I'm left thinking when will I see you again, and so I come up excuses just so that I can get close to you, kiss you and just hold you in my arms as long as I possibly can because when I'm with you, I genuinely feel like there's no place I'd rather be because for once in a very long time, I feel like I'm alive again"

"Okay", I heard him utter under his breath and he turned the ignition on. When we reached my apartment building, I quickly got out of the car and aimed at the entrance without looking back, then heard the sound of his car driving off.

The weekend of Tristan's surprise party was soon upon us, and it meant I had to face Nathan again after his whole falling for me confession. I honestly wanted to run for the hills and never have to face him again because I was anxious about a lot of things. Mostly because I liked our relationship so much, I felt like a serious-romantic relationship would change things between us and that things would never be the same anymore.

But either way, things had accelerated way past our control. I don't deny it, I also had feelings for him but honestly, the feeling of being in love scared me so much I was looking for reasons not to like him anymore so that I could stop fantasizing about the thought of him and me being in a relationship.

...... not that it helped though cause each time I'm around him, he gave me even more reasons to like him

He was slowly turning into a drug and, I just couldn't help but get addicted to him. The chemistry between us was too strong to ignore.

Then it hit me, I wasn't afraid of the feeling of love, I was just afraid of him leaving me for some reason one day