The One Night Stand Queen novel Chapter 33

"To prove that I can be wanted by someone half as decent as Alex...

"To prove I can be a successful tycoon as Ollie...

"And to prove I can and could be a good daughter...

"I stopped the taxi, paying my taxi fare as I stepped out. The taxi driver dropped me in the park.

"I sigh out as I walk slowly to a bench to sit...

"I mean what's the essence of running when I can't outrun the owner of this territory"I thought as I laughed out at my stupidity...

"I should never had gone to see her...

"I should have just stayed hidden.

"You know David was never the perfect groom Ollie thought he was. He always went out to clubs, drank, had lots of one night stands and he even did drugs, at first when I found out I was happy that Miss perfect actually now has a dent in her perfect image and I discovered that she can't be all that perfect. But then I felt kinda sad and wanted to I don't know....

"At first I wanted revenge, but with the way Dad and everyone puts her on a diamond pedestal I decided to continue the affair to spite her...

"That was mean right?

"I know....

"I feel so dirty!

"Am sure she hates me"I murmur suddenly sobbing out loud .

"What I did was seriously unforgivable.

"Will she ever forgive me?

"I think she will, here I think you need this more than I do"I heard a deep strangely sexy voice say as he hands me a handkerchief.

"Oh God what's wrong with me Olivia was right. I'm a cheap slut,the volume of my cries increased.

"Hey it's OK, did I startle you?I didn't mean to. I'll leave if you want me too but first thing is first I'd really like to know what's made a beautiful and vibrant girl like you cry.

"Seriously the last thing I feel right now is not beautiful I think the word is cheap, selfish and greedy, I've done something inhuman which cannot be forgiven"I said to this dark stranger.

"There's no sin which cannot be forgiven. Everyone has their flaws no one is perfect and everybody make mistakes"He says to me smiling as he stared at me with those dark irises of his.

"Gosh I seriously can't remember the last time I went to church for a confession, but it seems I won't need one you're sounding like one of those reverend fathers"I say to him staring back at him. At the back of my mind I knew I looked a mess with the running mascara and my eyes swollen from crying.

"But something just wants me to keep staring at him, for the very first time someone actually sees me?

"It's like he could see right through my soul"I thought ...

"I don't need to be like her for them to like me...

"I don't need to dress and look like her for them to glance at me...

"I want to feel that sense of pride that "Yes have got a family that's always got my back!

"But in reality, I really don't and it's quite the opposite. All I ever wanted is to have a family. Having my own family with children whom I can love and spoil with attention, but it seems like life doesn't want me to have all that.

"Maybe life itself sees me a somekind of joke?

"An error?

"Mistake?

"Or someone who's not just good enough to handle all that I just mentioned....

"In trying to be someone that am not, have completely lost myself. I made so many terrible mistakes that I can't erase or take back. I feel cheap and dirty I even slept with my sister's ex fianc茅 am so foolish aren't I ?"I say sniffing...

"Don't weigh yourself with guilt, like I said everyone makes mistakes darling and you shouldn't overthink things at all, since you've admitted to your mistakes I think that's the first step. It's time to talk to this sister of yours and apologize"He says with his lip curving into a smile, isn't he frightened or disgusted from what i just told him.

"Doesn't he find me appalling cause I do!

"Hailey look at me"He says in a hard tone as he grabs both my shoulders....