Undercover Wolf novel Chapter 13

"Come on Zack, no need to be taunting her" I froze. It's him.

"She might surprise you" He added, coming to stand beside me. What is he even doing here? "There's no need to teach them the basics. I had a one on one with her yesterday, and I assure you that they are past that stage. Maybe even more" He whispered the last part in my ear, as a shiver ran down my spine.

"Yes, Alpha," Zack mumbled before taking his position. I suddenly felt annoyed. I could've defended myself!

"What are you doing here?" I asked without looking at him, starting my stretches.

"I couldn't miss my mate's first training session" He said teasingly, and I finally faced him with a pointed look.

"I don't need supervision. I can take care of myself"

"Oh I know you can, but I want to be here."

"Don't you have work to go do Alpha?" I asked unimpressed. This was the second time he was putting off work for me.

"I do. But it can wait" He casually shrugged as I rolled my eyes.

"Go. You don't need to be worried about who fights me." I knew that was the main reason why he followed me. Alphas and their protectiveness.

He didn't make a move to leave, but he didn't answer either. I took it as a sign to just ignore him.

We spent the next hour re-learning things we already knew. Ace watched the whole time, keeping his eyes trained on me with an impressed look on his face. 'Shit am I being too good again?'

"You can take a break," Zack announced, heading to his water.

"That fast?" I asked, feeling not in the least tired. They gave me shocked looks, while Aiden shot me a 'tone it down' look.

"Aren't you tired Roxy?" Zack asked curiously, while I increased my panting a bit to give the impression that I was indeed tired.

"Of course I am. I just thought you guys were tougher than that. That's all" I lied, grabbing my water.

"Remarkable strength and stamina" Ace whispered in my ear, making me yelp in surprise. "You can fool them but I know you aren't tired. What's your secret?" He asked, making my heart rate pick up a notch.

"I have no secret. I'm just a determined wolf with Alpha blood. You of all people should know what that means. Now can you please leave" I snapped, even though that was the last thing I wanted.

"But your brother is Alpha blood too, and you seem to be holding up way better than him." Yea that's because he's a better actor than me!

"Look I don't know okay? But you need to leave, you're distracting me from my mission" I cringed at the double meaning.

"Do I make you nervous ma cherie?" Yes, yes you surely do.

"No. But can you just leave. I. Don't. Want. You. Here" I gritted out. The look of hurt took over his face immediately, and all I wanted to do was take back those words, but I couldn't. I had to be strong.

He reluctantly turned and left, leaving me and my heart almost shattered. Every time I had a regret, I just had to remind myself why I did what I did.

I looked to Aiden and he gave me an impressed look, expressing his shock and delight through our mindlink.

"No. Please don't. You can't change my mind. I admit, the mate bond did pull me, but I had a wake up call and I'm back. I don't want you" I cut him off. His face fell even more, if that was even possible.

"What?" He asked almost inaudibly.

"I don't want you" I whispered, trying my best to not let my face or voice falter. He seemed to believe me, as I saw his eyes glaze over and he quickly left my room.

I fell onto the bed, burying my head in my hands as my tears started to fall. The truth is, I really did wish things were different. I really do want him, but I want happiness for my pack even more, even if that meant betraying my mate and waging war on his pack.

Maybe this was the universe's sick way of paying him back for what his pack did to us. But why do I have to suffer too? Maybe it will work out differently?

With everything in me I wished things will get better, that there will be some magical force that makes me get the best of both worlds. Yet deep down I knew that would never happen.

I climbed onto my pillow, burying my face in them as more tears fell. I haven't cried in ages. Who would've thought that the great Roxy would be in her mate's house, crying because she just falsely told him that she doesn't want him?

I felt drained, too drained than I should've felt. I didn't even have the energy to finish my movie. I cried even harder when I thought about all the other times I'd have to act this way towards him, knowing this won't keep him away for long.

Maybe after a couple weeks he'll finally give up, or I'll push him well enough that he completely hates me.

He'll move on and find someone to make him happy. He deserves better than me, a girl on a mission to ruin everything he has.

Sighing, I closed my eyes, trying to think of something else until I fell into deep, miserable slumber.