Undercover Wolf novel Chapter 52

"We need to talk. And we're going to"

I waited for him to protest and again, but instead he just stood there with an emotionless expression. I took that as a sign to begin. With a deep sigh, I softened my demeanour and looked him deep in his eyes.

"I'm hurt Ace" I said almost inaudibly, and his face flashed with concern as he rushed across the room to check every inch of my body.

"Where?" He asked as he scanned my body.

"Here" I pointed to the left side of my chest where my heart sat, and I watched as his eyes found the area that I was showing him. At first, he looked relieved that I wasn't physically hurt, but for the first time since last week, his eyes softened.

"Ace I cant express to you how sorry I am. I hate that I hurt you and I hate that you feel like you can't trust me" I paused as I took a step closer and held his hand. "But I assure you Ace that you can, and I really am sorry."

He sighed and looked deep into my eyes. " We're mates Roxy. You should've told me"

"I know Ace. I know that now. But please understand, at first I was so conflicted. My whole life I've been told how evil your pack was, and when I learnt that you were my mate, I didn't know who or what to trust. Inside my heart I knew that the moon wouldn't have mated me with the enemy. So trust me, deep down I knew you weren't but I wouldn't admit it to myself."

"When you tried to reject me" he mumbled, but it wasn't quite directed at me. He looked like he was remembering all the times I gave him the cold shoulder.

"Yes" I admitted "But that night when I accepted you instead, I stopped telling myself that you were the enemy. But that was the problem, I didn't know who to choose. I knew that I could have never brought myself to hurt you and your pack, but Ace I didn't want to betray my pack either.

"I came here on a promise to get my pack back what was theirs, and I wanted that as much as I wanted you at first. But I couldn't have told you without hurting my family, and I just didn't know what to do. So I tried to come up with ways to fix it, and one of those was to talk to you. But since you always shut me down, I just didn't know if I could really tell you"

I sighed and sat on his bed. I was happy when he sat beside me, actually looking as if he was willing to listen.

"On many occasions I swore that I would've told you. But then I was also worried about what you would've done to Aiden, or what you would've done to me" I looked up to meet his eyes, and they held so much assurance that he wouldn't have hurt me. "I didn't know if you would've felt so betrayed, that you would hate me or reject me"

"I could never hate you Roxy"

"But I thought you would. I was living under your roof, going behind your back. Even by the time I would've told you, Aiden would've already sent half the information on your pack to dad. I just thought that you would be so mad that-that-"

"I wouldn't have done anything to hurt you" He told me again.

"But you would've hurt Aiden"

"Did I?" He asked, making me realise that even before Aiden apologized, he didn't hurt him.

"No but I didn't know that. So I tried to fix it by myself. I tried to help my pack without jeopardising what we have."

He eased my head from his shoulder so he could look me in the eyes, and he had a look of regret on his face. Leave it up to Ace to feel bad about me knowing how he was hurting.

"Roxy I-"

"Ace no. You shouldn't feel guilty for hurting. I knew you were trying to protect me from falling into deeper hurt, but I hate that you went through that alone." I held his face in my hands and leaned my forehead against his.

"Promise me that if something should happen in the future, you let me know how you feel okay? We're in his thing together, and even if I can't make it better, at least you won't be going through it alone" He sighed, looking unsure. But I urged him. " Promise me Ace"

"I promise" He repeated with promising eyes. I smiled warmly at him as I softly pecked his lips.

"Good." I mumbled "I love you Ace"

"I love you too baby" He replied sweetly just before his lips caught mine in a kiss, and I immediately returned it.

At first it was soft and slow as we relished in the wonderful feeling of being together once again. But just like any other kiss, it ignited a flame of desire that I knew and loved too well. In no time, the kiss transformed completely --It was rough and filled with want.

'Oh how I've missed this.'