He's My Ruthless Billionaire novel Chapter 19

In the end, she looked damn adorable.

No, get that word out of your head.

She looked damn... damn... damned.

I wanted to kiss her so badly, but I don't know why am I having these thoughts.

You can't forget anything.

You can't.

'You don't deserve to be loved'

'You'll die alone'

'Or your wife will kill you'

'No, you won't get a wife'

'If you do, she'll poison you within days'

All these sentences keep repeating in my mind. I can't give in. I will never.

Robert Anderson never kisses a girl first. He never initiates a kiss. Never. Except for the wedding day of course! 

But she is different. She's your wife.

Oh, come on, not wife.

Legally, yes. (My brain said)

Emotionally, no. (Something in my chest said)

I don't have a heart. I don't have a fucking heart and no one said no, so I kissed her. I kissed her even if she didn't want to because I have every damn right on her. I don't care about anything. But it was different. Different from anything I ever felt. Different from any kiss I ever had.

"You're messing with my heart, which doesn't exist, Hailey," I said to myself because for the first time I felt guilty when she ran away towards the car with tears in her eyes.

The car ride was nothing like before. With her crying looking out of the window, it was just uncomfortable.

Just, stop, Robert.

Don't ever lose.

Don't give in.

Don't feel anything, I know you won't.

Because you don't have a heart.

You don't have feelings, your heart and soul died way back.

Hailey's POV

After reaching home I went straight to the room which was unfortunately mine.

Oh god, Hailey.

Why did you think he is gonna be good tonight?

How can you let him take advantage of you?

You are so weak Hailey, I hate you.

I cried. I cried for everything. Firstly, my family.

"I-I... sorry," I said. He was still hovering over me.

I looked at him. Why do his eyes show so much hurt whenever he is angry? Or does he become angry just because I hit some point on his nerve? Is he someone with a dark past? Is he hurt?

He nodded and stood up. "Night," he said and left the room.

Did he just wish me?

I mean okay, not a good night, but still... night!

I slept. After so much time I finally slept. Maybe I was tired, it was not at all because of his 'night'.

Robert's POV

She speaks the worst things. They are not such bad things, but she... she really doesn't know what she should speak and what not. I mean, seriously, dead or alive? Is she really surviving like that here? But that doesn't matter to me. She doesn't matter to me. Nothing should matter to you, Robert. Don't forget anything!

When she said that I don't deserve peace, it reminded me of everyone who said that I don't deserve love. It really hurt somewhere in my chest. I would have lost my mind and did something that I'd or at least she would have regretted, but I didn't. And I'm surprised. I am surprised I could control myself.

"You're gonna ask Ron to come along if I call you," I said to Max and left for MO.

Max's POV

It's time. I have to tell Hailey about Robert. I try to do this each day but today I have the courage and also, he isn't going to come back all night, he has an important deal coming just right at 1 AM. I have to stay away from her so this is the only time.

I knocked on the door.

After a good five minutes of knocking, she opened the door and was shocked to see me.

"Max... I'm so sorry, It's all my mistake. He-he didn't hurt you, right?" she asked, now totally awake.

"Yes, Mrs. Hailey, I'm totally fine," I said. She nodded and told me to come in.