He's My Ruthless Billionaire novel Chapter 18

"Kiss me," he said.

What?

Is he out of his mind?

Why on Earth will I kiss him?

"W-what?" I asked.

"You don't want me to repeat. Do what I say" he said.

"N-no, I-I won't. L-listen. You hurt me; I don't say a thing. B-but not like this. Nothing to play with emotions, t-this is wrong. K-kiss? N-no"

"Hailey..." he said and clicked his tongue. "If that's what you want," he said and got away, and turned around. I was happy but soon he turned back and kissed me fully on my lips.

That spark again.

It is again building up in me and I don't want that.

How can you feel good with someone like him?

Hailey, just stop.

But his kiss was doing miracles. The butterflies in my stomach weren't stopping, they were exploding like there's no tomorrow. His intensity increased and I felt pure pleasure.

Hailey, shut up and stop it right away.

I stopped and ended the kiss. A tear left my eyes. I cried because I was disgusted by myself. I was disgusted because I kissed him back. I was disgusted with myself for feeling pleasure. I ran to the car, while he was looking at me with shock.

Robert's POV 

{Flashback}

After sending the doctor to treat Hailey, I went to my office.

Mafia Office. MO, in short.

"Sir, Ervin is still having his chance at the award ceremony" Cane informed me.

"It's okay," I said. "I missed that deal; I can't do anything"

"Boss," he said. "You worked very hard... and he-he took it"

"You don't need to remind me that, Cane," I said half frustrated. 

"Boss, we can talk into this. You only lost this because on that day your wedding was set. You can-"

"Just let him win!!" I yelled. He never argued with me before.

"S-sorry boss," he said.

It's hard. Everything is hard. How long will I live two lives? It's not possible. I'll lose one day. I'll lose myself. It's getting suffocating every single day when I don't even know what am I even living for.

"Robert," Max said. Cane left the room. Max is my junior, and Cane and Ron are Max's junior. So, they leave us alone when he enters.

"I'm not"

"You don't even sleep! Being the best businessman in the day and the biggest mafia boss in the night is not easy, Robert and you can't hide that from me! You're- you need a break from life, Robert!"

"I took a day off. Mr. Spencer's deal went off. What else do you want??"

"One deal doesn't matter, Robert..."

"Max. Sometimes I feel, even you aren't on my side" I said and left the office. I went to my other base to check every situation. Then I returned home, ate my breakfast as It was 5 in the morning, and went back to check everything once again, and then Max took his place as 'the boss for the day' and I went to my legal office.

Or LO for short, that was the Anderson Corporation.

As I returned home at night, she came out. She made me feel something in my non-working heart. 

And that's what I hate. 

I don't want her to make me feel anything. I hate it when it hurts. It is dead, my heart is dead, and she is waking it up, which hurts. But I don't want to hurt her for just making me feel better. Then I took her hand softly and went to the ceremony.

Everything was perfect. He won the prize below me, the second best-businessman. I knew it, but if I hadn't missed that day, I would've definitely defeated him. His words made me lose my temper and I took Hailey with me too.

I didn't want to leave her alone because she was shy and all those men...

NO. I don't care about her. I don't care about anyone!

She's my wife and that's why I did that.

Then I went back, calming myself cause I expected to win the last award too. I won it. It was no happiness now. I don't find any happiness in all this.