His Girls novel Chapter 5

As I stepped toward my desk a strong smell made my stomach turn I instantly spun and ran into the bathroom and lost my breakfast. I felt a large hand hold my hair back and another rub my back. When I was done I groaned and pushed back onto my heels and flushed the toilet.

With shaky hands I wiped my tears away.

"You okay?" He whispered. I nodded and winced hating that it was him who had seen me like this. He pulled me to my feet and sat me on top of the toilet.

I avoided his eyes as he kneel in front of me.

"This is the fourth morning you've gotten sick." He said his finger tips grazing my shoulder making that stupid feeling go through me.

I had been denying what I knew was true. I wasn't ready to face reality and here the root of my problem was forcing me to see it.

"Sidney are you....are you pregnant?"

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I burst into tears pressing my hands against my face unable to stop the ugly sobs that began to rack through me.

His scent enveloped me as he wrapped his arms around me and pulled me against his chest.

At least all my children have the same father I thought humorlessly. How could I let this happen again? What was wrong with me?

Did he ever wear protection? Was I not the only girl he'd gotten pregnant? The thought enraged me.

"Don't you ever wear a condom?" I snapped pushing him away from me.

Adain's eyes widen in shock. "Its mine?" He whispered.

"Who else's would it be you dip wad." I sniffed as more tears started to fill my eyes again.

Adain rocked back onto his heels his expression stunned. "I mean I hoped but-I figured it would be your boyfriends or....not mine." He breathed.

"So you think I cheat? That I just let anyone between my legs!" I yelled shoving him.

He blinked startled. "What? No Sidney its just you never told me who was the father of your girls was so I assumed..."

"That he and I were a couple and I didn't want you to know? What logic is that Adain?" I snapped.

"So your not seeing anyone?" He asked.

"No Adain I'm not I haven't seen anyone since I found out about the girls." I said rubbing my face.

"So the father just left you alone to take care of them?" He said angrily.

I laughed finding this ironic.

"Why are laughing?" He growled.

"Nothing. Look their dad doesn't even know their his and I'll be fine. One more baby won't break me. I know you don't want this baby and probably don't want anything to do with me so don't worry about it. I wont come after you wanting child support." I sighed.

A rage burned in his eyes shocking me.

"So thats it? Your just cutting me out. You aren't even going to let me in my child's life."

I blinked confused.

"Wait you...you want to?"

"Of course I do Sidney!" He yelled. "I wouldn't leave you alone to raise my child. I want to be there for everything how could you think I wouldn't want my own child?"

I blanched as I realized I'd made a mistake. I hadn't tried hard enough two years ago. He had thought I'd been wanting more from him not to tell him he would be a father. I realized then that he would have been there for the girls.

"Come inside its cold out." I rasped.

It was silent as we all entered the living room the TV becoming background noise.

"Im a terrible father all ready. I can't tell them apart." He said with a shaky laugh.

I gave a small smile and showed him the freckles on Alyssa's nose and that Alecia's hair was a bit longer.

"They look so much like me." He mummer as they crawled out his lap and onto the floor where their toys were.

I nodded.

"Sidney what I said the other day...I was angry and upset and I didn't mean any of it."

"Its okay I deserved it." I said swallowing hard.

"No you didn't and I realized that that day you came to the garage. You were going to tell me you were pregnant weren't you?"

I nodded wringing my hands.

"An I told you to get lost." He said with a sigh.

"I should have tried harder. I realize now that you wouldn't have rejected the girls like you had-" I cut myself blushing.

"Like I had you?" He said staring at me.

Thankfully Alicia came up to me holding her empty cup.

"I'll be back."I said grateful to be out of sight. Filling the cup half with water and the rest with juice I decided to make Alyssa's too. When I returned the girls were talking to Adain half of it gibberish the other half simple words they had learned.