I'll Take This Pain novel Chapter 1

"I'm only telling you this,

because life can do terrible things,"

- Terrible Things by Mayday Parade

An Omega is the lowest ranking in a Werewolf pack. 'O' is the last alphabet in the Greek Alphabet, so that makes Omega the lowest ranking. I am the Omega/Slave of the Broken Shadows pack. I don't know why I got this position but they said that it was because I was ugly and unexpected. I don't know if it's true because I don't think I am ugly. I think that I am just average. Being an Omega isn't easy. The beating when you do something wrong. The words that they say to you which gets lodged in your brain and doesn't want to come out and the bruises.

Being an Omega hurts. A lot.

An Omega is also very rare because most packs treat their pack members as equals, but I guess my pack is an exception because they treat me like dirt. They said that I should be proud of being an Omega because Omegas are rare. I, Scarlett Rose Davis, is the Omega and Slave of the Broken Shadows Pack.

I've always had dreams about having an Alpha's mate and being a Luna. But dreams are just dreams and this is reality. I have never stood up for myself in anyways. There's no use for standing up for myself because that will only get me into more trouble. I've been beaten many times and I've gotten use to the pain. The pain just feels great. The only way I release my feeling are through pain. Because pain is all I've ever felt. I have been MDD, Major depressive disorder. Major depressive disorder means a mood disorder which is characterized by a loss of interest or pleasure in almost all activities and by some or all of disturbances of appetite, sleep, or psychomotor functioning. A decrease in energy, difficulties in thinking or making decisions, loss of self-esteem or feelings of guilt, and suicidal thoughts or attempts.

I've tried killing myself 2 times and I failed both times. I don't know why I am still living because there's no more meaning in life, no one wants me around and everyone wants me dead. I used to have the perfect family, a beautiful younger sister and amazing parents but they all turned on me and betrayed me. My sister's name is Lindsay. Lindsay has blonde hair with brown eyes. She has beautiful long legs and a perfect body. She used to be sweet and adorable but during Middle school, she changed into a slut. Her clothes became shorter and shorter and she's out of control now. My dad is the Beta of Broken Shadows Pack and his name is Tom. He has messy brown hair and blue eyes. He was tall and a great Beta. My mom's name is Sarah. She's beautiful with a head of wavy blonde hair and grey eyes. I have wavy brown hair and brown eyes with a chubby face.

He was Caleb Asher. I've seen his wolf before. The wolf walked in a circle around me and rubbed his head against my front leg. He was my - "Mate." he said into my mind. I walked back to the cliffs edge and lied down on with my head on my paws. He came closer and nudged my side before lying down next to me and touching his snout against mine. I didn't have the scent of an Omega because my wolf isn't an Omega although I am an Omega. I closed my eyes with a question in my mind. Will he reject me once he sees who I am in human form?

I slowly stood up and bowed, then ran. I ran like there was no tomorrow. I ran away for my mate, Caleb Asher. I didn't hear paws behind me. He wasn't following me. He just let me go. I took the long way back to the pack house. When I was a few blocks away from the pack house, I heard a heartbreaking howl.

An Alpha's howl.