My Human Mate novel Chapter 64

"No, its fine. You-You don't need to." She whispered looking anywhere but at me. Guilt flooded me and if it was anyone else I wouldn't give a shit but it was Alana. I didn't hate her and just because she rejected me, doesn't mean I want to hurt her. I made the promise I will never intentionally hurt her, and I intent to stick it.

"No. I'm helping. We just have to work out way throughout the bars." I told her and bit my lip in concentration. I felt Alana's gaze on me, and they looked lustful. I became quite aware that I was bighting my lip and had no shirt, revealing my torso that I had put many years of hard work into to achieve. My wolf swam in the unspoken complements.

"I don't know how to do this," I eventually and reluctantly said as I gestured to the bars. I looked down at Alana, loving the feeling I had when I towered down on her. It made me feel dominate and that I could protect her from the world. I felt in control, something my wolf loved. But I knew he would never get true satisfaction of power because with no mate, I would never be a full wolf. The alpha blood in me wolf make me stronger once I mated fully, but now that won't happen I stubbornly accepted the fact I will never be as powerful as I could be.

"I-I have a," she stuttered softly in the sweet voice of hers but stopped herself, turning and looking down.

"You have what?" I raised my eyebrow in question and folded my arms over my chest.

"I-It's nothing. I shouldn't have said anything." She shrugged brushing it off.

I frowned at her but didn't let it go. "Just tell me." I demanded.

"After what I did to you, would you hurt me?" she asked hesitantly and I couldn't help the growl that crept its way back.

"When I promised you I would never hurt you intentionally all that time ago, I meant it. I'll never stoop so low to hurt a girl, no matter what you've done it me." I said firmly making her know that I keep my promises.

She hesitated slightly but then spoke. "Maddie gave me key to your cell." I had no response, the piece of information shocking me to the core. Why would she help me if I tried to kill her? I couldn't make any sense of it.

"She said you can't come out, but I can go in if it's safe. You can help me that way." The wariness was playing in her voice and it made it obvious that she had never had to take care of her injuries much.

I nodded my head finally making some sense of the words. "Come on in."

I could hear her deep, shaky breaths as she tried to calm herself as she opened the bag duffle Maddie left for her. I could hear her heartbeat racing wildly from her nerves. I knew my eyes were bright red meaning my wolf is in control and she knew it to, but she didn't know if my wolf was angry at her or not and I'm assuming that's what worried her. She stood outside the cell door for a moment, then hesitantly placed the key in the lock. Turning it slightly, the door swung open and she stood nervously in the space.

Making an escape would be so easy right now. Alana couldn't stop me, not as many guards patrolled at night and I could make a clean getaway but I couldn't bring myself to do it. My wolf was nagging for me to stay with Alana and since he was mostly in control I couldn't help but make my body comply with his wishes.

She made her way in, steps hesitant and small but eventually were facing each other with nothing in between us. I lifted my hand and lightly rubbed a small circle into her skin. I felt her lean into my touch and my wolf yip in excitement. The fucking butterflies in my stomach was still there when we touched but less noticeable than when we were mates.

I placed my thumb under her chin and lifted her gaze so she was looking up at me. Once again the feeling of dominance clouded me and I felt like a protector for her, still ready to jump in front of her and to defend her if a possible threat even after the bond breaking.

"Ummm," she muttered awkwardly and I snapped out of it, taking a step away from her but not breaking out eye contact. "So I guess I have to lock the door again."

My heart instantly tightened at those words. If I wanted to get out of here now was my chance to do it. Alana was on her way to recovery so I had done my part. But I couldn't do it. I knew she would be upset if I just bolted away from here and away from my problems.

I sighed and looked over to the side, slightly pissed off she was ready to lock me up just like that. I felt torn and it was a shit feeling.

It was silent for a moment, none of us saying anything.

"Or I could leave it unlocked." She said really quietly. "But you can't, you're not allowed to escape and attack anyone. I can't have another person threatened because of me." Something tugged in my chest and I recognised the emotion as guilt.

"It's not your fault." I said firmly, ending the conversation there.