My Innocent Girl novel Chapter 42

"I..." she thought for a moment. "I don't know. I can do anything"

"Anything like?"

"Like... work under someone maybe? Like I used to do before..."

"You know that you don't need to earn any money anymore, right?"

"Ah, really?"

"Of course, Ashy"

"Um then... what should I do?"

"Uh well, I don't do anything else than being a Mafia boss so I just want you to do some household work maybe"

"Yeah. Alright"

We reached the living room. "Uhm sit down for a while"

She sat down on the sofa and I sat beside her. "So, what can you do in household work?"

"Well, anything. You know, Lara and I... well, we have always done everything on our own. So, I know how to do everything"

"You are definitely a wife material"

She looked at me shocked and blushed a little. "Uhm, but why did you have to do everything on your own?"

"My mom... you know. You know everything, don't you?"

"Yes, I do"

"Then why are you asking me?"

"I want you to remember it"

"But why, Vincent?"

I looked at her as she looked back at me with a small amount of hurt and anger in her eyes. 

"I want you to remember it because it will help you"

"Help me? How?"

"Tell me. Since everything happened, did you ever talk about it? About how you felt? With anyone?"

"No... I... I only had Lara and cause she also went through it all, we decided to never talk about it again... cause it is... it is so hard... I-I..." her voice broke as she was on the verge of breaking down.

"I know. I understand. But if you keep it all inside, you are gonna... it is gonna be really difficult. It is gonna eat you up inside. So, you have to let it go for once"

"I... are you sure?"

"Yes"

"Oh... okay... if you say so..."

"Yes, I do. Don't you think I am right?"

"Y-Yeah..."

"Good then"

I took a deep breath. "It all started with dad. I-I mean, you know... my dad... if I even wanna call him that... wasn't the perfect dad most of them have"

"Why?"

"You know, right?" she asked again.

"I just know what happened in total. I know nothing about why, or when it happened"

"Oh... okay..."

"Yeah. So tell me" I insisted.

"He... He was abusive. He would drink and return at midnight. At any point, I could hear screams from my parents' room and it scared the shit out of me"

"Understandable"

"So where did you go?" 

She looked at me and sighed. "Police. I reported him to the police and told them about my mom. I thought maybe my and mom could start living together again. Thought she would be lonely too, would be in need of her daughter again"

"Hm..."

"But you know what they found out?"

"What, Ashy?"

"Mom... she-she was sleeping with other guys. Not a guy, but guys. I-I was so... so ashamed. I-I didn't know if I even had a purpose to live anymore. What kind of parents did I have? I... I felt like whore myself"

"Ashy. But it wasn't your fault!"

"I... I wasn't thinking straight until Lara came"

"Lara. How did she enter your life?"

"They found out that mom... she was also sleeping with Lara's.... my cousin's dad... so... so it practically broke their family too..."

"Go on"

"Mom... and dad were arrested and even Lara's dad was arrested... and after all this Lara's mom committed suicide..."

"Oh God, this is a lot, right?"

"Of course... I-I can't believe I said it all"

"I bet you feel lighter"

"I-I am not so sure of that" she finally broke down and cried while I hugged her.

"It is gonna be alright"

Ashley

I was feeling suffocated as I remembered everything again.