The One Night Stand Queen novel Chapter 12

"You should be sorry, because what you did was unforgivable I know it partly my fault and I also enjoyed the sex too but am not "Regina".

"Am not her and I'll never be her. You failed to notice that last night. I thought what we had or rather the passion we shared last night was mutual but it seems it was all in my head" I say dryly and angrily.

"I know and am sorry but last night was incredible and mind blowing. Have never experienced the kind of click we had, that passion we both shared and I don't regret it at all but I also shouldn't have said what I said this morning am sorry" He says with a pained expression on his face.

"If you would just give me a chance, I'll tell you all you want to know"Alex says in desperation.

"So there's really someone then"I whisper more to myself. I guess it's normal I mean he's just some stranger and has a life for himself, and me?. Am just the girl that had a one night stand with him.

"But why does the thoughts of him having another in his life makes me so mad!

"The anger and betrayal only seem to intensify as my thoughts continues to run wild. I don't even want to hear the lies he wants to spurt out this time.

"Just tell me one thing. Was I just an object or play thing to you. Or was I just a funny and interesting case you picked up from the streets?"I ask, suddenly dreading his answer.

"You know what? You don't need to answer anyone of my questions because now I just feel dirty, and disgusted at myself at behaving so wanton. I know we aren't in a relationship and it was only a one night stand but you know this isn't fair right? It isn't fair to me nor to you." I say with tears slipping from my eyes. It all was a damn lie again and I fell into it yet again. Each words I speak I could feel my voice rising and breaking.

"I told you everything about me, bared my heart and soul to you. I trusted you damn it and thought maybe you wouldn't throw that same trust back at my face. But instead you did the same, you broke my trust and not only that ......

"You broke me Alex"I say with a tear finally slipping from my eyes.

"There's no amount of apologies or sorry's that can fix this. So don't even bother, I better go now. The Midnight fantasy is over now so it's back to reality."I say trying to fake a plastic smile on my face.

I could see the worry in his eyes as he takes his hand through his hair. "You don't have to worry about me, am sure I'll do just fine. Besides many people do "One Night Stands" and they still breath fine. So am sure I'll be just fine."I say trying to stop more tears from slipping from my eyelids.

"I've noticed something about myself, I've been strangely sensitive to both food and anything greasy. At first I thought it's all because am in a new environment and that am not adjust well so its taking a toll on me physically.

"But my mind screams otherwise,My brain keeps pointing at something I should be concerned about but my mind refuse to dwell there. A part of me silently hope and pray it's not what I think it is.

"Although a little voice in my head tell me to look at the bigger picture. One thing I'm aware of, is that am quiet delaying the inevitable and it's something I can't stop since it's been done already, I know am just deceiving myself as a type of reassurance that my life isn't just about to Change. I know am just trying to hang on a thread to think that I still have that strong grip in my life.

"But it seems am wrong, Because images of that very night between me and Alex replays vividly in my mind over and over again and in all that unfolds their was definitely no part where we used protection.

"My hands shake repeatedly as I stare down at the pregnancy test in my hand which am about to take. I bought up to like three packs just to be sure of the correct result. I need to clear up my suspicions, to be sure if what I suspect is right, have been putting off this moment and now that I've finally admitted that theirs something off with me buying a pregnancy test is just the first step. But deciding to face the truth and reality is going to be quite hard, but am "Olivia Dane a successful entrepreneur" and I indeed to take everything in stride.

"I've been feeling nausea and throwing up every morning. I can barely choke down anything. Most of the time, it's the smell of the food that puts me off anything greasy , fishy and oily makes me throw up, and I haven't seen my Menses which I was supposed to see.