Undercover Wolf novel Chapter 8

It has been two whole days since we got here, and I've managed to keep myself scarce.

We weren't supposed to start 'training' until next week, since this week was meant for us to get familiar with the place.

Only 48 hours and I wanted to leave the house already. If only I had listened to Aiden's suggestion about finding new housing arrangements, because now I know living here for four months will be nearly impossible.

My wolf has been nagging me which only led to a constant never ending headache. How will I ever stay focused on my mission when she wont stop being difficult?

He wasn't making it any easier either. Every couple hours he would walk past my room, stopping a few seconds before leaving again.

Last night, I could've sworn he was sitting outside my bedroom door. His scent was becoming suffocating, and I never thought it would be this hard to resist him.

I knew I was hurting him, and I'm sure it's ten times worse for him than it was for me. All I wanted to do was complete this mission and leave, but I couldn't help the part of me that wanted to make it all better for both of us too.

But I couldn't, and it was eating away at me.

I had to clear my mind.

I couldn't bring myself to talk to Aiden since I promised him that this wouldn't affect me, and I didn't trust anyone here enough to talk to them either. So I had to call the one person who I was sure will know exactly what to say.

"I told you this would happen! Now you have to deal with it" Jane snickered in the line. I rolled my eyes with a face palm at her amusement which I didn't understand.

"What do you mean I have to deal with it?" I whined. " I called you so you could tell me what to do. Not tell me that you told me so"

She can't be for real.

"Rox a mate bond is sacred. There's no way you can resist him that long. I give you three more days" She said, the smirk evident in her tone.

"Are you forgetting why I'm even here? Why are you joking about this? I'm supposed to come through for us all, not fall for the enemy" I sighed. "Jane, you know better than anyone how much this means to me. If I get involved with him there's no way I can complete my mission"

There was silence on the other end of the line after I spoke, and I knew I hit the nail on the head.

"I'm sorry Roxy, you know how mate talk gets me excited... But you're right, this is too important. Look, he's your mate and it's your choice to choose your priorities. I wouldn't judge you if you choose him" She sighed. "But if you're truly sure about this, the only way you'll survive is if you reject him. I wasn't joking about giving you three days.'' She ended and my heart felt like someone was squeezing all the blood from it.

I have to reject him? Just the thought made me want to gag.

I've heard stories about rejections. If the wolf that rejects their mate truly doesn't want him/her, it will be painless but the other wolf feels everything. How can I do that to him?

Plus, I knew deep down that I wanted him too somewhere behind all the ego, pride and determination. If it were other circumstances, I knew that we'd be together right now.

So if I should reject him, I would feel that pain too. But just the thought of hurting him makes my eyes water.

It made me realize that being locked up in a room for two days hasn't been helping either, so I concluded that breaking a little sweat was what I really needed. Working out always calmed me.

I grabbed some training gear from my huge temporary closet and quickly pulled them on. I put my hair in a low bun and slowly opened the door, peeping to see if Mr Alpha was on one of his patrols.

Seeing that the coast was clear, I quickly rushed downstairs, silently praying that I wouldn't bump into him. I successfully reached the kitchen without being spotted, silently celebrating my small felt victory.

Calum and Lilly were sitting in at the kitchen island, causally eating what I assumed was lunch.

"Hey guys" I greeted out of politeness. I only ever see them when I come down for breakfast or dinner, even though I normally take it to my room.

"Are you here for lunch? There are some extra sandwiches if you want" Lilly offered sweetly. I actually felt hungry, so I took one and quietly nibbled on it.

They seemed shocked that I actually sat with them, and I realized that I was already failing my mission. We were supposed to get them comfortable with us, and I was doing such a terrible job.

"I actually came to ask someone to show me to the gym. I would like to have a workout" I mumbled after finishing my sandwich.

"I'd be happy to take you but you have to get permission from Ace first" Calum informed me.

"Why do I need permission from him?" I didn't see why it was necessary, but he simply shrugged.