Undercover Wolf novel Chapter 9

"He said he needs to know when you guys are leaving the house. If anything happens to you guys under his care, he can get in a lot of trouble with your dad"

"I can take care of myself" I bit a little too harshly.

"I know you can, but I have to obey his orders. He's in his office, I'm sure he won't deny your request" He smirked.

Okay matchmaker.

"Can you ask for me?" I asked with a pout. I was trying really hard to stay away from him, and I could see that Calum saw right through it.

"I think you should go" He insisted suspiciously. I noticed that they must've been wondering why I didn't want to see my own mate, so I reluctantly surrendered just so I didn't raise anymore suspicions.

"Okay" I mumbled as I turned to leave.

"Remember what I said Roxy" Lilly called out before I reached the door. I nodded, remembering when she told me that he was a good person.

I contemplated just going back to my room, but I figured if I was ever going get any better at this, I had to be able to be around him.

I didn't agree that rejecting him was the best thing to do, but I knew that accepting him wouldn't be smart either. All I had to do was find balance between the two.

Shouldn't be too hard.

I let my legs lead me to the door that he told me I could find him at. I held my hand to knock but was immediately cut off by his voice.

"Come in Roxy," he called sternly, and I reluctantly walked in.

His office was big and beautiful, just like the rest of the house. Everything looked so modern and in place. If Aiden and I will ever have to search through here, we would have to be very careful to arrange everything back neatly.

"How did you know it was me?" I asked softly.

"I know your scent Roxy. It was sketched into my mind from the moment I knew you were mine" My heart leaped at him mentioning me as his, and my wolf purred at his voice.

He got up and walked around his table towards me, but I stepped back as he got closer. He caught my movement and settled against his desk in disappointment.

I had to be grateful that he was so patient. Many Alpha's wouldn't have accepted my distant behaviour.

"What can I help you with? Are you finally ready to talk?" He asked with hope filled eyes. I simply shook my head, avoiding eye contact.

"I actually wanted to go to the gym for a workout, but Calum said I had to get your permission"

He looked hurt for a moment, and I had to keep my feet in place so that I didn't do something to make this all worse. Everything about him was calling out to me.

His eyes suddenly lit up as if he got an idea.

"I can take you there," he said suggestively, causing my eyes to widen in panic.

"No it's okay, I'm sure you have work to do" I tried to convince him but he wasn't backing down.

"I don't mind really. It's not as important as you. I'll take you"

"I don't want you to take me" I blurted out.

"Then I don't give you my permission" he shot back stubbornly, crossing his arms.

"So you're gonna be like that?" I squinted my eyes challengingly, but he simply mimicked my gesture. A small smirk curved on his plump lips as if he was enjoying the moment. Surprisingly I did too.

"You have a really beautiful smile" He whispered with his eyes sparkling.

That's when my heart melted.

The smile immediately dropped from my face. Not because of his compliment, but because of what I was thinking about.

Am I really going to help my father ruin my own mate? Do I really have it in me to use him, plot against him then rage war against his pack?

'It's only to get back what's rightfully yours,' my annoying subconscious reminded me. But knowing Father, he's not just going to take back what was his, he'll want to take more and ruin them.

I knew this even before I came, but I didn't mind one bit. Until now.

Am I really prepared to do this? I'd be a terrible person, worse than they were when they attacked us. I wasn't even entirely sure if Ace was like his father.

Dad assured us that nothing has changed over the years, that they were all just as ruthless as the former leaders so we shouldn't fall for their behaviour. But even if I decided not to carry on with the mission, I'd be labelled as weak. I'd be failing my pack, going back on my word. If I leave Aiden to continue by himself, I couldn't go back to dad. I'd be shunned.

I couldn't stay here and live with Ace either, I'd be betraying my family.

But either way, I'd still be hurting Ace. If I leave and say nothing, Aiden will just continue the mission that I knew about, and they'd still be attacked. Plus, I'd leave him mateless. But even if I stayed with him, I still couldn't say anything to him about my pack's plan, and they'd still attack.

So either way, I'd be betraying both my pack and my mate.

I guess this was what Jane meant by choosing my priorities. Honestly, in that moment, I just wanted to fall off the face of the earth.

Why did all this have to happen to me?

I want a do over.