Will Rejection Hold? novel Chapter 3

Mate! He's our mate!

I smiled, "You're my mate..."

"Yes. But no. I'm rejec-" I know where his words are going immediately. My smiles dropped from my face. Tears prick my eyes, my shoulders slouch, and I bit my lip to keep my emotions in check the best I could. "reject- I'm rejecting- oh God!" He stammered on his words looking at me. His eyes looked torn, but his words still bit into me. He looked like he was in pain. Probably upset that I was his mate. His sad and upset look was ripping out my heart and leaving an open wound.

"It's okay. I get it. Don't worry, I'm not worth it anyways." I give him a fake thin lipped smile, desperately wanting him to not look so upset. His face was not emotionless, I guess that's better than before. I stared at him a second, giving him a chance to say something. The silence ate at my heart, I turned and let myself out the door. My muscles felt weak and tender, as if I would fall on the floor in a pathetic little puddle at any given moment. He didn't stop me. Never once did he reach out. I was like I was falling into a sea of nothing, and I had no idea how to stop.

I didn't go to lunch. Instead I walked aimlessly around the school. I thought that maybe if I was was doing something, it would keep my mind off of Alex. But of course luck was not in my favor and that didn't happen. Instead the aching in my chest grew with time.

The day dragged out even longer than normal. I would see Alex randomly throughout the day and my heart was crushed a little more each time. My wolf cried all day, not allowing me to get any work done.

By the time the final bell rang I was so drained and empty I couldn't even think straight. Due to this impairment I missed the bus, causing me to walk home.

The thirty minute walk wasn't bad, it allowed me to think through the events that today held.

Your mate rejected you. He doesn't want you here. Your brother doesn't want you here. And even if he does it's not actually for you. You are fat. You're so ugly that you're own mate dosent even want you. No one will miss you. They won't even notice you're gone. You have no friends. Just go.

My mind crushed what little strength I had left in me. And by the end of the walk I had decided. I have to leave.

Maybe I can become a better person if I leave. And years from now I can come back. Maybe if I workout more and get skinny my brother with accept me as a sister and Alex won't hate me so much. I know I'll never be good enough to be his mate, but maybe if I can find a way to be prettier or smarter he'll let me be his friend.

"I ran away from my pack." I tried to keep my head high, but tears pricked my eyes again. I bit my lip and looked at the ground to hold them back. My body shook with worry and tears, my breathing was labored and I could barley stand up straight. They were going to kill me. I was technically a rouge and Alpha's have to protect their packs from rouges. He'll kill me.

"Why?" He commanded again, causing me to jump. I was gripping a part of my sweater in my hands messing with it, a nervous tick from being in front of this angry Alpha.

"Chase, chill dude! She's too weak to do any of us harm. Plus, she's a wreck." Said the tall blonde with no shirt. I was weak. That's why Alex rejected me. I looked over to see him walking towards me. I took a cautious step back. But he just took another step and wrapped his arms around me. At first I stayed tense, but eventually I caved into him and hugged him back, sobbing into him.

"Now why is a beautiful girl like you, crying?" He whispered into my hair. His hands held me by the waist, my head tucked into his chest.

"You don't really care, but thanks for being kind." I pulled back and looked to the Alpha. "I'm sorry, I'll leave if you don't want me on your land. Or kill me of you'd rather. I was just passing through. Sorry." I turned and reached for my bag, with my back turned this would be a perfect opportunity for the Alpha to snap my neck faster than I could ever even think about defending myself. I did it on purpose. Giving him the chance to make my pain go away. I paused a second. I could hear no movement as I waited.