Her Innocence novel Chapter 37

"Janet?" He called me, his voice soft and calming.

"Can we just get to bed?" I whispered as he was quiet for a while before he mumbled an 'okay'. He pulled back and eyed my face as I tried to hide it from him, he didn't give up as he pulled my face up to his. The tears were nonstop as I gulped and kept my eyes at his neck, never looking up at his eyes. We stayed like this for a few minutes before he picked me up bridal style, without speaking a word and walked towards the bedroom.

He laid me on my side and went towards his. He took his white coat off and his shirt leaving him bare while I just watched him. His face was angry somehow and his mind was elsewhere as if he was thinking hard. I didn't want him to worry about me. But that moment I needed him really bad and my heart acted.

"Are you going to tell me, what's wrong?" He asked as he sat on the bed watching me with his eyes narrowed. I just shook my head as he sighed in disappointment with his eyes closed. He just pulled the duvet on top of me and him and turned to face away from me quite aggressively. I stared at his bare back, his muscles moving as he exhaled and inhaled heavily. I took my hand out of the duvet and poked him with my finger but he didn't turn around and I poked again.

"Janet, go to sleep." He grumbled as I frowned.

"Why aren't you hugging me like you used to every time we sleep?" I groaned as he still didn't turn around. I scooted towards him and wrapped my arms around his torso as I hugged his back.

"Please Nathan, I-I can't tell you right now. Just let it go for now." I whispered with a little whimper as I heard him sighed deeply before turning his body around to face me.

Without saying a word, he wrapped his arms around my shaking body, his chin rested upon my head as my eyes stared at his bare chest.

"Good night." I mumbled as I neared closer to him to get his warmth. I closed my eyes and didn't hear his voice as I felt myself falling in a deep slumber. Right before I went into deep sleep, I heard his faint sound making me smile.

"Goodnight."

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"I love you." Nathan whispered in my ear, as I bit my lip blushing hard.

"I love you too." I whispered him back and hugged him tighter feeling his bare body. He hugged me back as well while I admired the moment. Not wanting it to end. All of a sudden, he jerked a little and groaned making me step back.

"What happened, Nathan?" I asked as he watched me with his eyes widened. He fell to the ground with a thud onto the carpet of our bedroom as he tried to form words and I shrieked.

I couldn't sleep, those brown, chocolate eyes that were filled with tears of fear were etched to my mind. What has happened? I texted her and she was fine. What could have happened in that short period of time? My mind was all jumbled up as more and more questions arose in my brain. I wanted to know her all, but even after telling me so much about her, I still felt there was so much missing.

I groaned as I saw her fragile body hold me with her dear life. As if she is going to lose me, her tears were my weakness and her begging made me lost it. I didn't like it. I would only like it if she cries with happiness or begs when she wants something from me. I had no clue what to do, I wanted to protect her but the question was, of what? What is that thing she is so fearful off? Or is it someone.

What if I did something wrong? Did she cry because of me? No, no what could I have done wrong? But what if...

I shut my eyes and my thoughts as I tried to sleep which came to me after a very long time.

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I slept late and woke up quick, I was mostly half sleeping as I was worried about Janet. The clock read 5:17 and I didn't dare to get up. I could just lay with Janet till it was time to get up. I gazed at her sleeping state, her pink lips were sealed closed as she breath through her tiny nose. Her skin was flawless, her eyelashes so long and those big doe eyes were the definition of her innocence. Whenever she stared at me with those eyes, I lose. Those eyes make me want to do anything she wishes for. God, I love everything about her. I love her. Yeah, it's been on my mind since so long. Just didn't had the time to say it or the right timing to say it.