I'll Take This Pain novel Chapter 8

"No, I don't cry on the outside,

anymore..."

- Behind These Hazel Eyes by Kelly Clarkson

I stayed in the confinements of the white walls for a week and a few days. I had no choice, I wanted to escape from the white room but my wolf wasn't strong enough. I hit my head so hard that I had a concussion and I lost a few of my memories. The worst is that the memories I lost were my childhood memories. When I had a perfect family, when I had a sister who looked up to me, when I had people loving me. The memories I had were the ones where I felt pain, where there was blood everywhere. I still felt pain whenever I moved my head. For the whole time I was in the hospital, I never let anyone in except for the doctors and the nurse. Every time when someone wants to visit me, I would ask the nurse to tell me who it is and then if it's one of them. I would tell her to not let them in. They've been pissed alright. They were actually shouting in front of my hospital room door. I didn't get why they didn't get the memo that I didn't want to see them, at all.

To be honest, the pain of the rejection is getting bigger and bigger. It started from the limbs then it would travel through the muscles then it would hit me right in the heart. It would come and stop and then come back again. It always came with a big 'bam'. A hard impact. My heartbeat would start increasing, sweat would start dripping from my forehead as my hands gripped at the bed sheets. I didn't want the doctor to check on me. The question I had in my heart since I woke up from my mini coma was 'Why am I still alive?' and I got the answer.

"No. I am your mate." He said lightly gripping my wrist. I shook my head again. "No. I haven't found my mate yet. Please stop irritating me and lying to me, I don't have a mate. Please leave if you have nothing else to say." I said softly then turned to my side so that my back was facing him. I heard a faint growl, quickened footsteps then the door slamming shut. I just had to keep the act up, they said I have amnesia?

I will act as if I had amnesia.