The Last White Wolf novel Chapter 42

I stood to my feet catching both of their attentions, like said before Austin turned to Trent patting his shoulder and looking down, "I'll talk to you later-"

"W-wait!!" I shouted pass my brother onto him. I found it shameful. How could I be such an asshole? My brother was found! And I wanted to talk to Austin more than I did wanted to catch up on conversation with Trent.

"Bye." He mumbled to Trent not even paying attention to me.

"Austin please!" My feting moved on its own, my open hand finding his shoulder as I pulled him back. The painful slap to my wrist shocked us all. My brother looked dumbfounded, Austin's expression was unreadable but mine... the wideness of my eyes hurt. My heart hurt. There it was again. The painful clench to my chest suffocating me with sadness. I couldn't bear it as the tears ran from my eyes. The trail of marchinf tears rolling down my cheeks as I lost my only composure. I wasn't able to hide how painful it was anymore.

"I-I have to go-"

"It was wrong of me to compare you to him, because you a far much better than milo Austin. And I'm really sorry." I sobbed ugly. I didn't understand what I said with these damn cries coming from me while I tried to apologize. I wiped my tears only to have them fall again.

"Chance?" My brother pulled me to him burying my face in his chest. Shame. To get comfort from someone younger... embarrassing. "I don't know what's going on but please leave Austin."

"N-no!" I fought to say but my brother's grip was strong. "P-please stay...please...!" The small movement my brothers head made to nod and the shuffling footsteps in the snow said it all. He wasn't going to listen to me. No matter how much I apologize... how much I was sorry... "please..." I whimpered in my brother's grip still sobbing against his chest. But no matter how hard I cried that day, how many tears I shed in my brother's arms, how many times I repeatedly call out for him to not leave me... he did. The barrier I put between us was to big to tear down.

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"Tell me please!" My brother whined from the end of the bed. I shook my head no gnawing on the inside of my mouth.

"Hehe..." I weakly chuckled playing with my nails. It was funny if I think about this way. That we were never mates then it wouldn't hurt so much. We weren't mates. We weren't even close. So why does it hurt? "He didn't even bother to look at my face... ha."

"No Trent. You don't have to get him."

"B-but!"

"Hiding behind my brother to get the person I want to see is simply to low. Instead, thank you." I walked over to the exit waving back at him, "I heard you went to the hunt to. Get some rest please." I was tired of using my brother as a pillow. I should have ran after Austin but...

I stumbled over a rock, quickly catching my balance as I headed to Austin's tent. I bet the atmosphere in there smelled just like him, his intoxicating scent floating along the air of the room. And I was right. When I pulled back his curtain the beautiful scent hit me, drowning me... hypnotizing me. I was too afraid to go in. I could tell he wasn't there, and I really didn't want to upset him when he came back to his tent.

Once again I was sitting on the snow, my face flushed, my heart aching and beating as I waited. If he would just... let me apologize. Please listen to me. I waited watching as the sun set and as it rose again for the 12 hours past. I didn't care about sleep. I wanted to see him. I had to. The snow building up on me was nothing. I didn't care. I stayed in the same spot seeing as he didn't even come back. I had already made up my mind, until I could talk it over with him, I wasn't leaving the spot...