Adopted novel Chapter 46

We arranged to give out lots of items and organize some physiologists to come to visit for two days with the help of Sophie's parents, putting the last shirt into the luggage I closed my luggage pulling it out of my closet I rolled it towards the other packed luggage in the room. Placing my backpack on one piece of luggage and a big Hermes bag on the other, I take my seat on the bed looking around the organized room I take a deep breath and decide to finish dressing up before the arrival of Cole.

A knock on my door pulls me out of my struggle with the sneakers lace "Come in" I called out not taking my attention off the sneakers, a pair of Air force one-covered feet stands in front of me "Still can't lace your footwear doll" Cole said kneeling to help me with the lace. "It's not as easy as it looks and you know that" I whined with a smile on my face looking at his styled hair "so she says" he whispered jokingly "hey I heard that" I tapped him on his back playfully. "You hit hard now doll," He said rubbing where I tapped him with his hand playfully "Come on, let's go" he pulled me on my feet.

"We are taking off in the next few minutes, do you need anything before we do?" One of the fight attendance asked, "Can I get a bottled water please?" I responded with a little smile towards her. We are taking one of my parent's private jet I take my anxiety pill after the water was brought and I slept off during the takeoff.

We arrived in Texas around noon deciding to start our visit the next day, Cole asked the driver who picked us up to drive us to the apartment we leased. Entering the apartment, it was cozy and had the feeling of home with the not too expensive furniture and description but also looking classy in its way, "this looks very homey" I voiced out to Cole who was standing behind me also looking around in satisfaction. "It does, our apartment should be like this and not looking like a showroom" he suggested with a smile, "Count me in, I am loving the home vibe am getting here, I can't wait to check out my room" I called out racing to the bedroom area.

My room turned out great as expected with a queen-sized bed placed in the middle of the room between two side shelves, a wardrobe, and a dressing table with a door leading to the attached bathroom. After arranging my luggage and bags, I joined Cole in the kitchen who was preparing lunch "the refrigerator and pantry are stocked with lots of eatables, but you know I can only make this" he said pointing to the ham sandwich he's working on. "I prefer the sandwich to food poisoning" I responded jokingly knowing he can never cook to save his existence.

"You are right doll" he mumbles after reassuring himself, "Now to you, how are you really and truly doing?" He asked looking at me undivided "It's hard to heal you know, I have been burying it all inside. Pretending to be happy when in reality all I want to do is hide away from the world, I feel as if I am being thrown into a world of hungry wolves and vultures without any guidance all I get is bodyguards who don't know if am truly happy or sad, money isn't everything but my parents prefer making more to spend on me than spend their time with me but I can't complain because I don't want to be an ingrate." I explained with tears running down my eyes.

"It hurts every time I am reminded of my past either by Kim or her friends, it hurts anytime I have nightmares and there is no one to comfort me, it hurts when I cut myself but no one notices, it hurts when I smile when all I want to do is cry, it hurts when I want the pretense to stop but no one cares, it hurts when all I need is a hug but all I get is more credit notification, it hurts that I have a fan base but I can't help them because I need help personally, it hurts because I know I need help but I don't know how to seek for help and I just want to heal, be free from all hurts, nightmares, aches and pain" I sob fully.