Her Mate, The School's Player novel Chapter 30

"You get it?" I ask.

"Yes, here it is", he takes it out of his pocket and lays it on the bed beside me. I couldn't even look at it, never did I think I would have to take one at this age. "Are you going to take it now?" I nod and go into the bathroom. Damian follows me.

"Where do you think you're going?"

"I thought I could come in too because I want to be there for you". He's sweet but there's some things girls want to do on their own especially pissing on a stick.

"No offense Damian I just want to do it on my own, I'm sorry".

"It's okay, I get it". I close the door and pull down my tights as I sit on the toilet. After peeing on the stick I pull my tights back up and go out to the bedroom again. "How are you feeling?"

"Nervous, scared, sick", I sigh.

"Why aren't you feeling happy? Don't you want a family?"

"Not at this age", I say truthfully. "I guess you're happy".

"Yeah, very and excited. You should too, we're going to make lots of memories now".

"How can I be happy when I know I'm going to in so much pain. If you had to fucking push a head and body out of your body then you'd be fucking scared too".

"I'm sorry, Amber. I'll stop talking about it, I didn't mean to upset you or ruin your life", he says sadly.

"No, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to get mad, you haven't ruined my life. It's just the hormones talking". I put the test on the table beside my side of the bed. Neither of us said a word, we just waited in the silence for the next few minutes. I could hear his watch ticking. Tick tock, tick tock, tick tock. It got really annoying. The silence got more intense. My phone starts vibrating in my pocket and I jump with the fright. I started to shake as I answer the phone.

"Hello?" I say.

"Hey Amber, I was wondering if either you or Damian want something in the take away?" Devon asks. I look at Damian and he shakes his head.

"I don't think it's the right time", I say.

"Please don't get rid of our baby, you can't do that Amber", he begs. How could he think I would get rid of our baby, I would never do that. Maybe he only thought that because of what I said. "It's my baby too and I don't want you to, please I'm begging you not to do that. I know you're the one who has to carry them for nine months but please do this for me. I know it's a lot to ask but please I want this baby more than anything. I want you and them in my life, I want us to be a family". Those are the sweetest and cutest words he's ever said.

"I'm not going to have an abortion Damian, I would never even consider that. I don't believe in abortion", I say. He relaxes and calms down.

"You're going to give it up for adoption, aren't you?"

"It might be easier if we just do that", I say. Then we could still do school and go on with our lives. We could give them to someone who really wants one and has been waiting for ages. A baby can cause lots of arguments and we could break up then I'll be left to look after the baby by myself as a single parent. "Don't make this hard for me Damian".

"But Amber, how could you give our baby up. You're their mother and if you give them up they'll be calling someone else their mother. How could you go on with life if you keep thinking 'what if'?"

He's right, if I give my baby up all I would think about is them. I'd regret it and I wouldn't be able to go on knowing that they think someone else is their mother. Every second I'd be like 'what if I didn't give up the baby', 'how different would my life be' and all other sorts of questions.