Her Mate, The School's Player novel Chapter 46

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Amber's POV:

"Just one more push, Amber," the Doctor orders. I was pushing as much as I could, I can't push any more, I was so tired and in so much pain.

"I can't," I cry, gripping onto Damian's hand. He was holding it and I was squeezing the hell out of it like I have been since my waters broke. I hate hurting him, it was obvious I was causing him pain but he still smiled.

"One more, baby, just one more," Damian repeats. I push harder, as much as I can and then the pain lessens and I hear another baby cry. I had already given birth to our firstborn boy a few minutes ago, I haven't even held him yet because they just took him off to a table. I look over at the doctor and see my other baby, the one I just gave birth too now. "You did it, Amber." I smile over at the doctor.

"It's another boy," the doctor smiles.

"Can I please hold them now?" I ask, ready to tear up.

"I'm sorry, Amber. But you're giving them up for adoption and their adoptive parents are looking to see them," the doctor explains. The midwife who was over at the table with my first boy starts heading to the door with the doctor.

"But I want to hold them first before they go," I cry.

"I'm sorry, but it's better for you not to get attached," the midwife says. I could see his little face under the towel and tears stream down my face. I look over at my other boy and cry harder. Why can't I at least hold them once?

"Damian, do something, don't let them take them!" I scream at him. Damian was already crying and looking down at the ground.

"Please just take them, doctor, quick, I can't see them again, it will hurt too much," Damian sobs.

"As you wish, I'm sorry," the doctor says sympathetically, leaving the room with the midwife behind taking my two precious babies who I never got to even hold. My poor babies, they're mine, I gave birth to them, I deserve to hold them at least one time.

"Hey, it's okay, Amber," Devon soothes. When I had finished puking everything up I get up and hug him tight. I cry with relief to have someone be with me. I felt so lonely without Damian, without him I feel heart broken. "Amber, what happened? I heard you scream!"

"I had a horrible nightmare, Devon. I was in the hospital giving birth to the twins and when I gave birth to them both the doctors took them without me even holding them. I wanted them to bring them back so much, but they refused and I never saw them again and I hurt Damian so much."

"It was only a nightmare, I'm sure in real life they allow you to hold them before you give them up."

"I don't want to give them up anymore, Devon, I want them so much. My nightmare's showed me how much I need them and care about them. Does Damian hate me, is he okay?"

"Oh thank god, Amber, I knew you wouldn't go through with it. Don't worry, of course Damian doesn't hate you, he loves you more than anything and yes he's fine, just a bit upset."

"Of course he's upset, I was horrible towards him by saying that I was going to give them up. Will he forgive me?"