The Last White Wolf novel Chapter 20

"Milo is awake..." He picked up a burning log examining the beautiful red glow the flame presented.

"Shall I go to Milo then? Tell him I missed him? That I cried non-stop til today? That I want him to mate with me and have little light browning baby pups?" Austin turned to glare at me for being sarcastic. "Oh and maybe we'll take over this tent-"

"You're being ridiculous." He took a stand dusting off his shorts. "Why don't you just visit him naked? I'm sure he'll greatly appreciate that." he snorted walking out of the room which pissed me the hell off. I threw the covers off of me(more like struggled) and headed after him in the cold darkness.

"There you go being captain asshole again." I hissed having to jog just to met his walk.

"Well, you're not helping the situation!"

"Oh! But you are? With constantly telling me Milo is really in love with me!?"

"I was only informing you." He muttered hurrying from me. I gritted my teeth scoping up a handful of snow, battering it into a ball shape and throwing it at him. I was so impressed about how hard it hit him, usually it would have missed or crumbled in mid air. He turned to me, a deep hatred glowing in his eyes that the moon made even more terrifying. I froze in place as I noticed what had really made him angry. The girl from before was showing Milo out of the tent as he quickly spotted us(well me). His cheesy smile soon faded when Austin's figure entered the picture( even though he was already there...).

"Why don't you go make love to him Chance?" Austin hissed at me but didn't leave. I could tell he felt guilty for stealing a love one from an person who was just on their death bed. But, he didn't steal me, I already had these emotions buried deep inside of me until that time alone brought it into daylight. I took a small step back, feeling my body tremble in fear. Austin knew that too, that I feared Milo hating me for almost killing him then for breaking his heart. That's why he kept repeating Milo's words to me, so I wouldn't regret the outcome when the situation happens.

"Chance..." Milo wrapped his arms around me tightly snuggling his face into my neck as he inhaled my scent deeply. "I missed you..." he whispered, I returned the hug, just not so tightly.

"I missed you too," I could feel my tears build up, I blinked my eyes repeatedly to keep them from falling, which failed.

"Stop apologizing..." He sighed. The tears that I knew would happen came, running down his face as he backed away from me, "I'm pathetic aren't I?"

"No, I am-"

"I can't even hold onto someone important but I can fuck up everything else."

"That's not true!!" I threw myself into his arms trying to calm us both down. "its not that I don't love you its just, I will always love you as a friend..."

He pushed me away looking down, the hurt building up inside of him. "That's not enough..." the words came out as a faint whisper as I tried to reach out at him again. He walked away not even bothering to look back at me. I couldn't blame him, in his eyes I chose the abusive asshole over the boy who continuously tried to save my life. I sunk into the snow burying myself in my own grief and stupidity. this is exactly what Austin was talking about. I was never good at making right decisions but you can't pick love, that is what I thought Milo would understand...