Daddy's Little Angel novel Chapter 45

It's been about a month after the bomb was thrown at me and I can only tell you that I walk through life like a corpse.

Waking up early for work, putting on a fake smile for my clients, heading to the bar after the days work and finally getting home plain drunk.

I haven't shed a single tears since Jack told me about Nora's pregnancy. I guess I am in denial. I refuse to believe that the baby is his, but the slightest possiblity of it being true has me choking on my own saliva every time.

I didn't say anything to him after he told me about it. I didn't scream or throw an object at him or even attempt to strangle Nora like I have imagined myself doing several times now.

Nora was discharged a day after the whole incident and by the way her eyes shinned as she constantly rubbed her barely noticeable baby bump, made me think of a thousand ways to commit the most painful murder. She even went as far as giving me a copy of the baby's ultrasound!

God must really hate me. I guess this is his way of telling me he doesn't approve of I and Jack's relationship.

Today, just like the other days had me getting home late and slightly drunk. What I didn't expect though was to have Jack sitting patiently as he stared at the entrance door like he had been anticipating my return.

My momentry surprise was quickly covered with a nonchalant attitude and nutral outward appearance as I tried to pass by him like I saw no one.

But it just so happens that my luck was so good that at the last minute of my successful escape, I tripped on an imaginary object and lost balance .

I yelp closing my eyes shut in preparation for the fall that never came.

Only to open my eyes and finally realize that my entire small frame was being supported by Jack.

I immediately tried to push him away but his hold was just too strong.

"What are you doing" I asked through gritted teeth.

"I'm trying to prevent you from tripping off cause." Came that voice I love but hated all at once.

"I'm fine now you can let go." I told him in the coldest voice I could muster

"And if I don't?" He asked challengingly.

I could see through him. He knows I hate being challenged. He is doing this on purpose to get a reaction from me. At this point he'll do anything to get me to talk to him even if it means us arguing. Well, sadly I'm not ready to give him anything. Not even a facial expression.

"Jack move, you're crowding my space. Besides, I need to go to bed I have a busy day tomorrow." I said nonchalantly as I made another attempt to detangle myself from his grip.

"I won't let go untill you talk to me." He said with much determination making firm his hold on me.

"Talk to you? I don't get , I'm I not talking to you right now?" I answered with unmoving eyes.

"You know what I mean Angel, stop playing dumb!" He raised his voice in frustration.

"Oh? I'm I now?" I asked with the sweetest smile that didn't very much reach my eyes

"Love... I know you're hurting and I deserve more than just this silent treatment, but please let me explain just once? " He desperately pleaded.

"Explain? Is there anything left to explain Jack? I already understand everything quite well. " I started to say.

"She is pregnant and due to the fact that you've never caught her cheating, you are ninety percent certain she's carrying your child."

"Or is it at myself for wanting what the universe hasn't given to me."

"Or at fate for making a fool of me?"

"I really don't wanna believe this baby is yours dad... But I still can't shake the possibility of it being yours." The thought of you having a baby that is not from me, it hurts...it hurts me right here..." I say pointing to my heart.

"Angel...I'm so sorry... I know I've hurt you. I'll rather die than watch you like this. I swear I feel nothing towards Nora. We could just raise the baby together, just you and me and compensate Nora, if you don't want that I could hand the baby over to mum. I'll do anything Just please don't leave." He pleaded with equally teary eyes.

"A baby is huge. I can't stop you from wanting your baby and I fear you'll have to marry Nora now because I know how much importance you place on a child living in a complete home. It'll hurt you to separate the baby from it's mother."

"But Angel, you are my home. The only home I wanna have is with you" he said looking into my eyes with his sad once.

"No Jack, I was your home...Now your home is with Nora. Three people living happily ever after and I am nothing but an outsider."

I said with a voice chocked up with emotions.

"Angel... I-" he began to say.

"You're sorry and you love me. It's a mistake , you don't love Nora... Aren't these what you wanted to say?" I asked him with a much more composed voice not really expecting an answer or waiting for one before I continued speaking.

"I know all this , I'm even silly enough want to believe the baby isn't yours and that's the only reason I haven't left. "

"Until the moment the baby is born and you're confirmed it's father, I'll stay by your side . But for the mean time, don't expect so much from me Jack, give me space to breathe and if I can, heal"