New Wolf novel Chapter 1

For the first time in years, tonight would be the only time that I would cry, because this time, it was really happening. My father was going to die. I couldn't believe it. I thought they said they beat the cancer but it just came back three months after. A few weeks ago I thought that we could finally have our lives back after ten years of this, but this was where it was going to end. But it can't! He can't die- he just can't, not before my birthday tomorrow. I wanted him there. He had to be. If I can't have him long term at least give me one more day.

"Dad don't talk like that! You're gonna be fine, okay? You can beat this!"

"I'm sorry, baby girl, but not this time." he barely got out. I could feel the tears coming, I hated when he did that. I hated when he talked like that, it sounded like he was saying goodbye and I can't accept that! I squeezed his hand tighter when I felt his loosen.

"Dad?" I whispered, fearfully when I saw him close his eyes. The only indication that he was still alive was the heart monitor beeping on the other side of the bed.

"Hanna," he said after a while. "I'll be going soon."

I bit my bottom lip to hold back a sob as the hot tears began rolling down my cheeks.

"I'm sorry that things had to end this way." He continued. "I want you to know that no matter what, I will always love you and you will always be my baby girl." He paused. "I'm sorry I couldn't be there for your birthday."

I couldn't take it anymore.

"No, dad! You'll make it- please, you have to!" I croaked.

"Hanna promise me that you'll be alright. Move on, and have a better life and be strong. Promise me that you'll go back to school. I love you."

"I promise. I love you too dad." I rested my head at his side. He let out a heavy sigh and felt his hand went completely limp. I shot up quickly as panic took over and I started shaking him.

"Dad?" I whispered, but he wasn't moving. "Dad! No, you can't do this to me! You have to wake up!"

The heart monitor was spiking and I could feel his body becoming cold. A bunch of nurses and doctors rushed in and began ushering me out of the room, but I refused to leave. After they got me through the door, they tried to restrain me as I began kicking and screaming to go back in. I finally got out their grip after I elbowed the doctor in the ribs and stomped on the nurse's foot. I headed to his room, and as soon as I stepped through the door, I stopped dead in my tracks when I heard the continuous long beep of the heart monitor. That was enough to tell me that I lost my dad, my only family, my best friend...

Holy crap I'm going to jail!

I knelt down and place his head in my lap and checked his pulse. Thank god he was still alive! But the side of his head was bleeding. Guess leave it to me to scar people for life. He was definitely going to feel that when he wakes up; if he wakes up. I guess I'm making two trips to the hospital today.

I watched him as his chest moved in a steady rise and fall motion. The doctors informed me that he was fine before they left ten minutes ago, and I couldn't help but feel relieved. I don't think I could handle two deaths in one day. It was about seven in the morning and I just wanted to leave this place and go home already. I was waiting until the guy woke up so I can apologize for hitting him. At least it won't look like a hit and run. But what if he wants to press charges?

I began pacing around trying to figure out how I was going to say it. I can't just say 'Hey. Sorry for the almost murder, no hard feelings right?' I had to make it sound so sincere that he couldn't possibly call the cops, and the best way was to practice for the real thing. Just hopefully no one walks in and I was talking to myself. They might have me in one of these beds.

"Okay." I tried my voice. "Hey, sorry about hitting you with my car, didn't see you there." I shook my head. That seemed kinda choppy and it's too simple. I started again. "Hey, are you okay, sorry about hitting you." I shook my head again, not satisfied with that one either. "That's too plain," I mumbled. I paused for a while before continuing. "How about, Sorry for almost killing you, I really did see you."

What?