The Rebellious Alpha novel Chapter 45

"I'm sorry, Claire." I mumbled while I relentlessly kissed her left palm. There she was, on my bed. Her body burning at a high temperature, sweats broke on her forehead while her eyes were barely opened. I cried regardless of the Deltas and Gabriel that surrounded us.

"I'm sorry for being a disappointing mate!" I continued. "I'm sorry for not being there for you, I'm sorry I couldn't protect you, I'm sorry I failed you, don't leave me please." I pleaded. "I won't be able to forgive myself." I whispered to myself while my hands clutched to her palm hoping she won't lose consciousness.

The door opened for some figures to saunter in but I didn't bother. My whole concentration was on Claire.

"I need everyone apart from the medical staffs to leave now." My mother pronounced with all authority and immediately, they all left my room in silence. I stayed regardless, seated by Claire's side crying like a child till my mother's hands comforted my shoulder. I wished I could look her in the eye and tell her this was all my fault. To tell her how bad a mate I was but I did otherwise.

"She'll be fine, Kevin. Just let me do my job." Her soft voice soothed and in a divine way, my fears were allayed. I slowly let go of her hand before facing my mother.

She assured me with a smile while her eyes beckoned me to leave. And so, I wobbled out of the room like an hopeless being. I was immediately greeted by Uncle Walker who stood against the wall opposite my door.

"Nothing will happen to her, Kevin." He started on a solemn note but I walked away from him slowly, nodding like an enchanted being.

"Why didn't you tell me you have a mate?" He asked by my side, how he joined me I didn't know. All I kept on doing was taking a snail pace across the hallway.

"Kevin." He held me back so our eyes could meet. His countenance described worry intertwined with support at the same time.

"Talk to me." He whispered.

"Ever since I was little, I've only been driven by one thing." I mumbled while my eyes stared at the marble floor, reminiscing about my Father. "Revenge." I pursed my lips.

"It made me dark, empty. It corrupted my good will that I never for once thought I deserved love. But then I met Claire," my eyes returned to his.

"She is like a light I can never reach. I felt like the moon goddess had made a mistake mating an undeserving person like me to her." I paused again recalling how we first met and the arguments we've had ever since.

"No matter how hard I tried," I smiled sadly.

"I was falling for her and a part of me had thought that perhaps I might lose her like I lost my father. A part of me, knew that I don't deserve love."

"Kevin." Uncle Walker called with a sigh following suit, his hand gripped my shoulder gently. "You deserve Love. Don't let your past ruin this beautiful present destined for you."

His hand slowly dropped from my shoulder.

"I have to leave now, I'll be back by morning but I want you to be strong. Nothing's going to happen to her."

I nodded while he heaved another sigh before parting away. I resumed my snail pace till I arrived the stairs and then sat on one of it's steps. I didn't even know how to feel anymore, my muscles were partially numb from the magnanimous pain I received from the mate bond. All because of my recklessness and stupidity.

"I am no Wolf of Justice Gabriel!" I almost blared as my hands curled into a fist. "Just because a miracle of some sorts happened this night doesn't mean I'm one kind of special wolf. Why does it have to be now that I show this useless traits you speak of?!"

I retorted but deep down, I knew he was right.

"That's because this traits you speak of don't just show up immediately, it takes time. Seeing your mate in grave danger must have activated this powers."

"I'm not the Wolf of Justice!"

"Why can't you accept the truth? You should be happy that you have been blessed with such wonderful gift."

"Blessed or cursed?" I retorted. "I am a dark entity Gabriel, all my life I've done nothing but made reckless, stupid and selfish decisions. I'm a broken wolf not a SPECIAL warrior by heart."

"Kevin you're destined for greatness. Just because your past haunts you doesn't make you unworthy."

"It does." I toned sharply. "Every good thing I get in life is ruined before I even enjoy it, My mate for example. I am unworthy of any gifts, Gabriel. I am no Wolf of Justice, the moon goddess definitely made a mistake."

I asserted before touring down the stairs. I needed some fresh air to clear my head and not to be filling them with clusters of gifts and destiny. I might be a special wolf but I wasn't ready to accept it. I don't deserve it!