The Runaway Luna novel Chapter 4

My wolf has been ignoring me since I walked away from her, and I don't blame him. He should hate me, I hate myself for what I did to her. Just as I am heading out to my car my beta Jered stops me.

"Cade. Have you seen my sister?" I feel a sharp pain go through my chest at the mention of her.

"Nah man I haven't seen her. Maybe she's at home?" I suggest, trying to act casual. He just gives me a small thanks and walks away. He hasn't seen her either? Worry creeps back up in me as I speed back to the pack house. What if she did something awful to herself? What if she was gone and it was my fault? I would never forgive myself that's for sure.

As I walk into the pack house it feels as if my heart stops. I see Jered holding his mom while tears stream down her face. A small tear even seems to have escaped Jered's eye as he tries to control his moms shaking. I've never seen Jered cry before.

CWhat happened?" Scared of what the answer will be I look at him with wide eyes. Jered just storms over to me and shoves a little piece of paper into my hands. I look up at him confused for a moment until his fist comes in contact with my face, throwing me back into the wall. What the hell? I move forward, about to hit him back but he breaks down in tears, falling to his knees beside me.

"Just read it asshole." He grunts, through deeo breaths. I unfold it slowly with shaky hands and freeze when I see her handwriting.

Cade,

I'm sorry I wasn't good enough for you. I wish could have been the perfect Luna for you but I'm not and I never will be. You were right though Cade. I could never be a good Luna, I would just mess things up, like I always do. Even though I know you don't love me, I want you to know you that I could have loved you, had you given me the chance. But I don't blame you, I know why you did what you did. Deep down I always knew I would never get the happy ending. But I'm leaving, because I can't bear to be around you or watch you run this pack with someone else.

So this is goodbye.

-Jaelyn

I put down the letter and stare at my beta questioningly. "Is there another letter?" A tear slips down my face, the pain starting to become overwhelming. He notices it and a glare forms on his face.

"Yes. My mom got one." He answers, clearly disgusted with me. I'm disgusted with myself. 'You should be.' I hear my wolf speak, finally. He hasn't said anything to me since this morning. 'I know.' I say back before cutting him off. I can't listen to his criticism right now. I need to find her. I look at Jaelyn's mother and hold out my hand.

"I'm so sorry, ma'am. But may I read your letter?" Ignoring me, she shoots me a hard glare and throws the letter at me before leaving the room. Of course they hate me. They read my letter, they know I rejected her. I try to shrug it off, not wanting to dwell on it and look down at the last letter.

Dear momma,

You're one of the only people in this world who never blamed me for daddy's death, and I love you for that. I found my mate today mom and I can't stop thinking about it. My mate is the future alpha mom, Cade. But I wouldn't have made a good Luna anyways, mom. I don't blame him. He rejected me, momma, You were wrong. He didn't make everything better. Just a lot more painful. I hope you understand why I had to leave, eventually. After all, if anyone could understand the pain of losing a mate, you would. Even though it's not the same, I still hope you will understand. Please tell Andrea I'm sorry. And that I will love her always. I may be back one day. When the pain eases. If the pain eases. I hope to see you again one day mom.