Fated Or Accident novel Chapter 42

"You and I both know you are still holding onto me."

"I can't just let you go mom. You were everything to me. And then you just left. I felt like it was my fault for years. How am I supposed to just let you go after all that I've been through mom?"

"Sweetie. I'll always be here watching over you but you need to move on in your life. Stop holding onto me as though I'm coming back. We will see each other again but not right now."

"You know for a dream, you sure do feel like the real one." I said chuckling.

"Arianna, you're going to be an amazing mother. And you don't need to me to tell you that. Nor do you need me to help you. All the information you've needed has always been right here." She said as she touched my head.

"What happened to you mom? And where's dad?"

"You've always known what happened to me. Come to terms with that. And as to your father, all will be revealed in due time. I promise. Would you like to hear what Marco is about to say to you?"

"Ari, sweetie." Alysia said her voice breaking. "Hey Hun. I miss you. If you can hear me, please come back to me. My life literally sucks without you. Marco's been a mess and I almost feel like hugging him. Kevin's been on jerk mode and Nicolas has just been sitting there silently crying and taking everything Kevin does with no comments. Nicolas is a really good guy and I have been helping him this past month to win you back. But I wouldn't have done it if I would have known you would go off and try and die on me. I'm sorry. I...I just don't know how to take this. Please just come back to me...i can't live without you sweetie. You're my little sister. I'm supposed to be there for you for everything. Don't leave us with those two babies by ourselves. They need you. We need you." She said breaking down and hugging my body as close as she can without messing up the thousands of cords I'm hooked up to. Trevor walked over to her and pulled her back into his arms and let her cry there for a few seconds before they left.

I felt terrible. I couldn't stop crying again. Everyone was down there crying for me to come back and I wanted to but I couldn't. Everything sucked right now. I felt my mother pull me into her arms as I cried. She whispered reassuring words in my ear and I felt a calm wave pass over my body. Then Kevin decided to come into the room.

"Anna. Anna, can you hear me?" He said as he walked over to me. I could tell that he'd been crying because his eyes were a little puffer than most. "Arianna, God I'm so sorry. I feel like shit. I missed out on most of your life trying to protect you when I could have just done that while I was still in your life. I made you feel alone and I was so wrong for that. Please Anna comes back to us. Nicolas looks like shit which means he probably feels 2x as worse. He named the babies. I think the names fit them. But...I need to tell you something..." He was cut off as his phone started to ring. He pulled it out of his pocket and answered.