New Wolf novel Chapter 74

I felt a tug on my sleeve and my eyes locked on Sage. I instantly knew he was trying to read my mind. My decision to go at this alone did not sit well with him. I know he wants to protect me, and I'm sure he can, but he's not invincible either. If anything happens to him, I won't be able to live with knowing it was at my expense. I can't keep letting him put himself on the line for me. It's my turn now to make sacrifices.

"I wish I could change your mind." he softly said. "I wish I could make all this go away."

"I don't like it either." I shook my head. "No one knows when, but some time from now, someone's gonna die. What my father kept from me might help me figure out something or at least try to stop them. I know you want to help but not coming would be the best thing you could ever do."

His eyes darkened. "You're pretending as if there are not people out there trying to kill you! They've managed to make it inside the pack without being detected. They could be watching us now. If they get to you before I could do anything, I... I can't save you again."

I painfully stared at him for a moment. I swallowed the lump that was forming in my throat. "What if I don't want to be saved?"

His eye widened. "What are you saying?"

"It could be the only way to avoid a fight and save everyone-"

"No!" His jaws tightened and he grabbed my arm and I pulled me into him. "I'm not sacrificing you for anyone! They're other alternatives. I'm not gonna lose you, Hanna."

My eyes began to shimmer. "But you'd do it for me." I felt his body stiffened as his grip on me got stronger. "You'd do anything for me." I tried to pull away from him, but his hold was beyond me. I just settled with nesting my head on his chest, defeated and torn. "You can't expect me to not do anything."

He shoved me from himself. "Then go." he bit out, his eyes brimming with tears that soon activated my heart to yield some of my own. "Go," he repeated, and in that moment I desired any word to fall from my ajar lips but I remained voiceless. I watched him, watching me as one emotion was entirely present before us.

Agony.

"Wow," I breathed out. A tear departed my eye from his painfully anticipated words. Due me becoming so attached, him telling me to go to what might cause my possible death was stirring something within. I know I told him to stay out, but I didn't think he would give in. Apart of me wanted him to let me be, and the other wanted him to make me stay, to tuck me under his arm and lay as if our troubles never existed.

"Isn't that what you wanted to hear?" He said.

"I love you."

A sob escaped my lips and I peered up at him from my lashes. There was something I was keeping from not only him but everyone, and it's probably a thing to be said before it rams you in the gut. I just can't seem to bring myself to tell him, or even believe it.

He looked at me as if he was waiting for me to say something. But his words were just bouncing around in my head that I almost regretted feeling what I felt for him, yet I couldn't help it.

"Kiss me." I practically demanded. He took a bit of time to react. But when he did, we leaped at one another. And then his lip touched mine, and then ours clothes gradually lessened, and then we found our way to his bed.

His fingers danced the length of my body, igniting my skin as if they buried excitement into my pores. I could hear our breaths elevating, synchronizing as the desire escalated. He grabbed the back of my head and delivered my neck to his lips. A half squeal resulted from me but it only seemed to encourage him further. He sucked, he nipped, he grazed, he licked. I found myself needing attention elsewhere than my neck, but he was in charge.

He slowly moved away from me and I studied his flushed face. Something about the way he stared at me made me realize he was asking for permission. I bit the inside of my jaw and began to near him. I had thought that by my actions he would figure out that I plan to give myself to him. Though, him wanting to verify my decision had my heart soaring.